good bye 2007..hola 2008

the year has almost come to the end. i wouldn't say it too soon for me to say that because it's already on december. just another how many days left for 2007. so let get back through the year. what had and have i achieved this year. this year has been a good, bad, sad, happy, up and down for me. what had i achieved this year is a new career, new life, new hope, new challenge, new friends and etc. and one more thing, what an achievement for me as well as i started doing something that i wouldn't imagine doing before such as "this". hahaha!!! i never thought that i would write something and people could read whatever i'm having in my mind. just imagine this, before i hardly could write a simple wish on a birthday card but now, i'm writing for people and share my story. tremendously amazing!! and one more amazing thing that i achieved to do is reading a book!! not just a book but its a novel!! hahaha!! ok, let get started.... early on january, i got engaged to Siti Erlyna Umran. it was on the 6th of january this year. that was a new hope for me. everything went as i planned and i could say i was quiet lucky for that. an experience to become her beau for last 8 months. she was great and i couldn't say more because she always been great to me. what had happened between me and her is going to be our history and i pray for her happiness. yeah we broke up!!. another great thing happened to me was this job. a job i couldn't imagine getting it. i'm living my dream. well part of my dream. could be better but i choose to stay. plus the great team! old and new. all make an impact towards me. getting know a lot of new people and chance of becoming part of their life. working in this line has been a very great to me as everyday i will happen to meet new people that came from every part of life and that makes me feel like i'm part of the whole thing. a lot of new faces also came to my life as i realized, not everything that we heard was true and all those stereotype sucks!! i just wish the best to come next year as i'm looking forward for the new challenges. as for my romantic life, i could say that how about i just take thing in steady pace and just let the time tell me what should i do next. until then...happy new year 2008!!

new leaf....

hey all....how are you guys doing? how's the weekend? my weekend? mmmm...i miss my lovely girlfriend because she has been away for 4 days.she went back to her hometown. damn! i miss her dearly. argh!! she just a lovely girl. when i think about it, i found out that i'm quite lucky because i've been getting a lovely person to be beside me all along. last time there was my lovely ex-fiancee. Siti Erlyna Umran @ Lyna @ Cat. she was great. very lovely, supportive, caring etc. now the girl that i met also very lovely and i know that if this time i let it slip away, i just let myself turn to be gay. no offence to the gays out there. i'm pro. hahaha! i know, i know. it just over with Lyna and started all over again with other girl. guys, this is God's work. written its going to be happen like this. what i had with Lyna was very meaningful and if it not the years that we been through together, i bet we must be married by now. but didn't work as planned. so, i thought the best thing for both of us is to go on separate way. i know it might sound little bit bold but face the world. we live in real live. the best that i could give her are my support and prayers. talk about my girlfriend, i just noticed that when you are in love, you just started all over again. even thought it quite tiring but hey, do you want it to make it happen? i want it. so, work it out man!! this is the 1st time i think i'm revealing this to the public if i'm not mistaken. yeah, i'm committed myself to Yantie Fadhlina. she is the rose in my garden right now. simply irresistible. that the best words to describe her. this will be the beginning of another chapter in my life. i pray to the Lord above, let it be my last and forever.

God, please hear me....

this time i want to tell you out there that i'm in deep shit of trouble. i know that i shouldn't whine about it but i just can't take it anymore. i'm so fucked up as my sessions in the bank are reducing and my sales are still at nowhere. man, what should i do now? am i not working as hard as i used to? am i was playing around all this while? am i not doing anything to move forward towards the victory? i just don't know what i should do now? i know that if AD knows about it, he will be very piss off with me. still has time for this while nothing on the board!!! fuck man!! i'm just sick of it all!!! GOD, please help me deal with this!! give me strength to strive myself towards the goals and please do not make me go broke!!!

i feel shitty...

time has run so fast and sometime i think of could not coop with it. many of the thing i'd seen has vanish as time goes by as well as something i used to have last time. for example, my life. my life was very plain and dull in sense of i have everything. it doesn't mean it wasn't interesting. it was but i would rather say it was bored because there was no challenge on it. hehehe..for example my relationship......argh, man i am just annoyed with what i just had. a conversation with.....i just don't understand what does she think? i wish i could understand it more but nope. at this moment, i just annoyed, frustrated and upset. but she 's an adult. so i guess i don't need to think for her as she can think by herself. what good to her is best for her. i just hope that she knows what is she's doing. not in my position to talk anymore. now, i would focus all my strength and thought to other who would want to listen to me only. that's all i can do. shit, i feel shitty..

something about me....

hello everybody....here again...there's something interesting i would love to share to all of you out there...really. i bet all of you can't wait to know what is it about am i right? as i'm writting this entry, tell you guys the truth, i really don't know what to write but i just feel that i need to write something. hahaha....gotcha! yesterday was a fabulous! why? i dont know why. there is no explanation of it. it was just simply incredible, wonderful. i don't want to talk about it more... as for today, i was planning spend the rest of the day by relaxing, rejuvenate myself. in other words, i'm going to make a house spa at home. hahaha!! hey, stop there! this is more interesting man! i just developed a new hobby....reading poems!! i found out it quite interesting as i learn a lot new words but some of it it really give me a headache. but hey, don't you think its cool? i think it is..some of it about life, society, relationship, love, dark, and many more. i don't know where does it come from... i mean the interest. but i think its not to bad. the idea was just for me to get to know the new words that sounds very intergalactic...haha..i think it started when get started to write in this blog. don't you guys think? 7 years back, i bought this one book called sophie's world by jostein gaarder. but that time it was just to impressed my girlfriend back then. i wasn't really read the book...hahaha! but now, i actually feel that i'm really in the situation of the story. doesn't it sound amazing? so...perhaps i just get started enjoying life now. so lets hope it going to last......

goodbye puasa...welcome raya

hello guys....how is everybody? i'm here doing just fine, little bit good than bad a bit less than great. just fine. so here we meet again. i want to share something with you guys out there about raya. it is such an anticipated festival right? i guess so. for kids i think it is but for us, i mean for me i guess not that much awaited because why? i'm more enjoy the fasting month than the raya month. i don't know but for me puasa month is the best of all. when i look back from the starting of the month, i found out there was a lots of activity that i wanted to do most of the years. which i think everybody would agree with me, or not. ok lets discuss why? there is a lots of thing that would happen during this month. things like bump into someone that years you haven't meet before, an old friends call and wish you wishes, bump into exs, meeting long time friends, meet new friends, and many more. if i list it down i think it would be half of the page is full. but the best thing is getting to do something special once in a year with your loved one. breakfast together, pre-dawn meal together. for me, even thought its not that grand event but it just happen once a year. am i right? i do miss it when it over because the experience was just an extraordinary. the feeling of feasting with your loved one is so much different during the month. why? do not ask me that. for sure i cant give you an exact answer.

me...

this week has been a bad one. why? everything i did was never enough! i'm running out time!! what went wrong? everything seems not as i planned. i'm so fucked up man. i really can't afford to have this situation at this moment. man i'm tense! at one point, i was thinking of quiting. but i can't because it won't help me to do better in life. it just an escapism. was it not enough of effort? was i fooling around? or the luck hasn't come yet? what should i do? now i'm starting to whine. which is i don't like to do most. but, what should i do now? is this a little set back? i hope. what am i worry the most is the life ahead. how should i face it? all this worries has been running in my mind since last week and this week getting worst. i do really can't afford to be like this. something is beyond my control. i'm suck this risk management? what is that? what am i talking about? this is what happened when i start to panic. i'm totally out of control. damn! but this is life. nothing seems to be in my way all the time. so stop whining you bloody sissy!! get back on the pace! do what i have to do! man you know that this is a little set back. just ignore the obstacles. this is work. i'm a grown up man!! full gear up. if it wasn't me to do this, then who else? i got nobody. i only have me. i'm not a quitter and that for sure!! come on me. im talking to me!! make it happen!!!! show to myself am i worth an applause. come on! stop this pointing out the fingers to others and point back to me!!! it's me!!!

tips to lose...

hello all, Ramadhan is here. so for all my muslim friends, you guys know what you all should do right? fasting la. so here i would like to wish to all my muslim friends, "Selamat menyambut bulan Ramadhan and may Allah bless us with all the goodness of this month" and to all my non muslim friends, you guys should try fasting because why? you can lose up to 5 kg in a month!!! that's why!! and also to detox your body and as for girls, no water retention( if u know what i mean..hehe..) and plus if you guys wanted so much to quit smoking, this is the time to do so. its really simple, just from 7am to 7pm. do not consume any food, water, no smoking until 7pm. but make sure before 7am u eat something that can makes you energize for the rest of the day. so guys try. no harm...write more soon...

my heart says....

my life isn't only about me. its about all. i mean my family, loved one, friends, colleague etc....sometimes i would think, why don't i just think about myself? i can and i did. but what happened then was everything went wrong. you see, it not just thinking about myself, i have to think about everybody as well. it is fun to do something like that but it's not fun when people around you start to complaining about it. i think it's not just about me all the while, its about everything and everyone of us. whatever that i do or what i'm going to do, i have to make sure it will not make others feel "hey that's not right!"...you know what i mean. i cant afford to lose something so precious in my life and at the same time i cant afford to not to do something that i wanted to do most before my time arrives. now everything seems to be cloudy. i sometime can't think straight man( i'm straight okay..hehe). it just went blur. i don't know how to judge the situation. this cant be happening. if not i will pay the high price for it. yesterday everything went wrong. i was acting like a jerk!!! i pity her for my stupidity. i don't know what was i thinking. am i too drunk to think rational? i don't think so....i was still can think. but what fuck i was thinking yesterday? was it because some other think that i having right now? perhaps yes. couldn't i handle it? i could. am i sure? hahaha..guys! all of you are now trapped into my mind game. hahaha....seriously i'm fucked up! this shouldn't be happening. my life isn't that complicated, its me who made it complicated. to whom i should go and find the solution? man i'm able to solve it by my own, it just that i'm too lazy to make it happen. people around the globe, i'm so confused!!!

L.O.V.E

Hi I'm a new person in the house(in the sense that I've never written anything in the blog before). Haha this guy by the name of Wan is an extraordinary person. Do you wanna know why?I'll let u know next time. So stay tuned...


Guess it will be too long if I wanna wait till next time to write again. Working is never an easy job to be accomplished. I have a friend who is studying in UM and she constantly tell me that study is a very tough job to do. Yes I agreed but deep inside me there is nothing in the world that comes easy. Working in a giant company that has lots of competitors is nevertheless more stressful than ever. So many people vying among each other to show that they are the best in everything. Those who can't stand the pressure will opt to leave. But not for me.Life is never easy. My members told me about that. My favourite member Khai said life is actually a struggle. Wan,my colleagues and I are always struggling to provide the best to the members, the company and of course to ourselves. I admire the spirit fired out by Wan. Albeit being strained to the neck on improvising on well u know what I meant, he will still provide his best service to members. Giving up,white flag, surrender will never ever exist in his dictionary. Always supporting and encouraging he's really a good pal (not as loyal as a dog though, hehe). That is also why he is so funny. Whenever he fights with me and of course when he loses he will say that he did not lose but he fought with love and he is just giving me faces whereby he has been bruised by me all over. Haha luckily his Bentara Guru doesn't know bout it. Quite an egoistic man I will say. But whatever it is he is truly a great guy. Forever supportive.

angel on fire....

this is a sad story to tell you guys...but i will do my best to deliver it to you guys out there.... so here we go....i'm really trap between situation that i thought i can be a peacekeeper....like the UN, but its appear the other way around. my intention here is to become a friend for both of them, but end up just one of them sees me as a friend not the other one..the other one even cursed me!! i'm being labelled as two faces la, not honest la, too cute la, that's just nasi tambah...hehe ...mmmm...what should i do? i was born to be cute, come on!! i do my best to keep it easy for everybody but the grudge is deep. it wasn't my intention to keep one party only, i would do anything to keep them both!!! i hope they can see my real intention soon..no hidden agenda..its truly because of friendship. sometime i think why do i bother to help them? why do i bother to take notice about their problem? why? i don't know why i willing jumped into their problem at first place...maybe that time i wasn't aware this could be happen. and trust me, if i aware of it, i wouldn't dare to put myself in this situation. but past is past. i don't care what anymore....but i'm truly sad..

simply fine..

this morning i woke up early man. do you guys want to know why? i have to be in axis p.j around 8.45 am for photo shooting. it was for my profile that will be stick on the wall for the members to get to know me more better. hahaha...i don't know what does it sounds like but its good though. so last night i locked my alarm at 6.30am. man i was so excited!! but end up woke up at 7.20am..hehehe thanks to mama. if not i will still be in bed now...i took a very quick shower, and took off around 7.30am...haha quick rite? so..here we go, i arrived around 8.20am, and i still have 20 minutes left rite? i did number 2 and anything else la. when the time arrived, i went down stairs for the session. then i found out that i was the only one who arrived. the rest of the trainers still haven't arrive yet. argh!! nevermind, its my fault. i was forgot about the k.l timing. when it says 8.45am its mean 9.15am!!! duh..lets go to the story..so when everybody arrived, the session get started la. i was the 4th person on the list. first it was 2 guys from manulife. then hezree. hezree session took quite sometime because he's wearing a specs rite? so the photographer had to adjust hezree position to not let the reflection of his specs gonna appear in the photo. then my turn, while the photo guy was setting up my position, i was look at the photo that hezree took and its appeared to be ok la. and i was ask to stand on the position. it just took me a while only for my session. i was surprised my boss so handsome and lean!!! that wrote by him..mmm..i was so surprised it took me just a while and i felt like being cheated man . i ask the photo guy,

" why so quick one? are u trying to con me?" then he said, "oh no, we dont have an intention to cheat you, you just simply photogenic"...end of the story... hahahahaha

brain storming!!!

i just can't see how you guys out there can stand for an hours sitting in front of P.C and write a long story for publish it to the internet. what makes it so fascinating ha? its hard for me to do so. i just read one blog just now, it was recommended by my fiancee. it's called,

" SEMUSIM DI NERAKA"

from what i heard, this blog quiet popular and even had been review in the newspaper last time. so i decided to check out what really makes it so popular. and i found out it was quiet entertaining. but not entertain enough as mine..(hahahahaha) just kidding. i couldn't believe that this dude can write that many stories. i think he better get a job as an editor at suratkhabar METRO. he's good!! and from there i got this idea what am i writting now. for me it's quiet challenging. i never train my brain to go beyond my capabilities of thinking. this is extraordinary for me if you guys out there want to know. but now i'm jammed!! shit!! see you soon la..

mmmmm....

hello everybody, how you guys out there doing? at first i don't have anything to write but then, jane's car got bang and now she very mery mad until she want to slap me on the face...she won't slap me..that what she said..she want to slap kenn.. and finally i have something to write about..it has been a long time i didn't write anything in here am i right? so now i'm back!! shit man...i'm so tensed, pressured and horny at the same time..i think that is because the tribulus effect. my boss has been asking me why i didn't update my blog anymore? i said

" dude, i don't have any idea to write." and he said, " just write anything that had been happening around this few days la."

then i think,

" yeah, why don't i just write anything from what ever that has been happened around for this few days."

so, it started like this, last week has been very good and bad week. why? this is life man. nothing in this world would appear to be nice all the time. something must go wrong. same thing goes with my game plan. F@#k!! there goes my story, i made a pact with terence about our sales plan. early of the month we both should reach our quater budget as we did that last month. but the only person who doing that right now is terence. argh!!!! and my water retention body boss keep ask me,

" mana saya sales?" its mean " where's my sales?"

can u spot the faults? yaya..that's him...until now i still don't have anything on the table yet. this is pressuring man..but i'm cool and i can handle this problem. and to tell u the truth, desmond is a gay...hallelujah!! everyday he 's been asking me for my C#@K, man another pressure!!! just kidding. do i have to give it to him or not?hahaha...hey lets get back to the early topic. i got a pending sales but until she pay for that session then i can relax a bit. just a bit. now in my bank, the session getting less and less day by day. sometimes i feel afraid to conduct a session. this can't be happening man. i have to do something about it. i can't effort to loose a session without top it up back!!! argh!!! do you guys want to know more longer i'm writting this shit, more tense i can be. argh!!!!

"where my sales?!!!!!".

and the best of the week was, we had KFC just now for our club launch. thats for now. ciao..

those days...

hello again...today is sunday morning..and yep, i'm working!!..this morning was raining heavily and i came here by bike...guess la how was i this morning..haha...lucky i have another uniform in my everyday locker. so....argh!!! let's not talk about that...the reason im writing is to tell you guys a story about how cool i was ten years back...hahaha...just kidding. but yes it's true that i was a cool dude back then..hahaha...because why? my passion for music was not a debacle issue. musics was everything to me. i was influenced by Metallica, Slayer, Megadeth, Anthrax, Guns n Roses, Nirvana, CockSparrer, The bussines many more. i was a skinhead when i was 14 year old. and that how it was started....as for any other teenager, i got influenced by all those thing that i thought it was cool. so i became one la. but it never last long in my heart because the idea was not suit my point of view.all those national front shit was not for me. so from there....i started to listen to punk music at first. Greenday...how punk is that? hahaha.....and at last God had sent me a message...HARDCORE AS FUCK!!!! Yeyo!!! hardcore is the music of my heart. no doubt about it....for me a band like Youth of today, Warzone, Chain of strenght, Judge, Bold, Sick of it all, Rykers, Madball, Ignite, Shelter, etc.. was my heroes and still in my heart...in my blood, in my soul....especially Youth of today and Chain of strenght. the lyrics are so positives and its all about togetherness... the spirit that no one can ever took away from us...i was proud of it.. youth crew spirit!!!! until now i still listen to my old collection but not as many as i have it last time. i gave it out to my friends and damn i miss listen to them. now i listen from the Last.fm only...but still in my keeps are Snapcase and Boysetsfire only and victory's comp. i forgot the title. but hey, no problem i still can listen to them online..so thank to last.fm to make me feel good one more time..write more..ciao

the day that the sun don't shine....

as you guys knows already that champion's league finalist are liverpool and milan right?..and as i watched the game this morning...i can accept the losing because the whole campaign we'd been using the same group of players. so all the players are basically fatigue from the last matches. but surely one thing that is, milan was a tremendous side which i prefer to lose to them rather that to lose to chelsea, liverpool. hey we still have league title and f.a cup to redeem ourself. as you guys knows as for the league title, we almost recapture the title back this season. it has been 4 years without silverware and i personally think this is the time to bring it back to old trafford. so basically i'm quiet happy for the whole performance by the team and i think sir alex also has the same opinion as me..so ill write more soon...ciao

never get enough!!!!

from the title up there, perhaps you guys must be wondering what is the thing that i never get enough with. am i right? yeah..i never get enough with what i have now. the knowledge. beside football, my passion for martial arts is very deep. any styles, any forms will do. i think that what took me to this job. i will get to a point that someone actually cant imagines to gain the knowledge. for me neither the styles nor forms is important, but the journey. it can be very experience, very tough, very painful, very hurt, very colorful, challenging and wonderful one. never about the destination! when i think about it, i feel like being a kid again. im so excited and actually i can even talk about it for an hour. full of surprises.... martial arts and weight training is inseparable. in order to get the strength and balance, one must train with weight. not only weight, the combination of plyometric and functional training will get a martial artist to their peak performance. obviously, training is very important and to have a proper programme also make the differences between you and the other martial artist. even me needs a programme. truly because i need to be train consistently and constant. so that i will be ready for any unforeseen circumstances, tourney or championship. my goal is to get at my very very best performance by early next year because i have something coming up. i don't know when, but by the time has come, ill be at my very very best... now a day, im more into total body combat. do you have any idea what is that? let me explain to you guys. have you guys watch UFC? PRIDE? No Hold Barred? it's something with no rules!!! whether you submit or you make your opponent tap out or k.o. what do you think? interesting? for me yes. because it's challenge the will. if you have a strong will, you will not tap out, but maybe k.o. (hahahahaha)....i've been learning martial arts like forever..from different form to different style...but never get enough..sometimes i wonder when will journey end...but i dont give a damn about that....i just want to pursue my dream...and im dreaming at daylight.....do you know what's that mean? figure it out by yourself....

wahahahaha!!!!

I knew it!!!!! I told u guys before...that we will win the league!!! No doubt!!! I'm so happy until i feel that i want to break into tears..we comeback from 2 goals down...that was an amazing comeback and the lads fought back with a great attitude. that a define champion. a tremendous show of an attitude and believing in our self took us to the glory...it was a thrilling battle and i would say this because everton gave us scare. to be here at this point, really believe that we can achieved more than the league title. like i said it to you guys last time, we are going to chase for the treble champions. sorry for overwhelming feeling but i cannot help it because I'm so happy. you guys must accept it. our last silverware was last 4 season ago if im not mistaken because i really not a detail person. and that was only a Carling cup if I'm not mistaken again. it took us 4 years to build our team without spending so much money and just believed with the youth development. it's pay off. this is what i love about the man u. we really know how to be a champ!! the true character of a true champion. OK guys, I'm going to stop for now. i will write more soon..bare with me ya..ciao

glory!!!!

How do i start? Well... we won even though the scoreline is narrow but we still won. i just worried for the next trip to Milan. We all knows what Milan capable of when they play at home. they are a great side with alots of history fairly to say. Even with the of old horses, but they still can manage to pull of something out of nothing. With the vision of Kaka and Pirlo the playmaker and the players that i wish to have in my team, there will be alots of intervention in the midfield area. the battle going to be tough and a ruthless one. I just hope that Micheal Carrick can hold the lower side of the midfield while Scholes roaming all over the pitch..God, i really can feel that we are going to be the champion of Europe, League and F.A. treble this year, it is mean that we re-write the history..glory Manchester United..glory!!!

work on weekend?? Argh!!!!!

i wish that i'm still on my bed.....mmmm..wouldn't it be great? argh!!! that is just a fantasy...i'm here at work...i reached here at 6.45am k...on Sunday morning!! hey work has to come 1st..no matter what..but i love to be here at the club...yes i really mean it. i feel like there's nothing can be a better place for me rite now than the club...i don't know why...just the feeling of being here is more relaxing than at home...at here i can work and play at the same time..if i get bored with the work, i play la..after had enough of playing around, i get back to work...so guys this is my work looks like..fun? boring? it's up to you guys...but for me i rather be here that any other place in the world rite now...ill get bore one day but definitely not now.....c ya soon..

Best Diet Programme

It is strongly advised that the following recommendations be adhered to achieve maximum benefits from your diet program. Remember a little discipline will go a long way in achieving your fitness goals.
Never skip breakfast. After sleeping, your body’s metabolism is low. Having a wholesome breakfast (within 30-40 mins of waking up) will boost it.

Never go hungry. Eating small meals or snacks throughout the day prevents hunger and boost metabolism.

Never overeat at any meal. It is better to eat 6-8 smaller size portions in a day than 3-4 large ones. This prevents sleepiness and keeps you energized throughout the day.

Never have a large meal within 2 hours before training. If you are hungry, have a healthy snack.

Always eat within 2 hour after every training. Your muscles start repairing and building in this time. Get a balance of protein and complex carbs.

Drink At Least 10-12 Cups Of Water Each Day. If You Can, Drink More. This is a small point but you should be drinking a lot of water. Don't drink so that you're bloated though. Water helps flush out wastes and toxins inside your body. It also helps in metabolic functions and chemical reactions that require water. Water is also especially important if you are on supplements like creatine. To know if you're getting enough water see if your urine is clear. If it's very yellow you need more water.

Eating Before Bedtime. Eating before bedtime is important. Think about it; you're going 8 hours without protein and carbs. This sets you up for muscle breakdown (catabolism). So to avoid this, drink 2 cups of milk or have some cottage cheese. The slow absorbing protein will last you most of the night and the carbs in milk are slow absorbing so they will also last you through the night.

good feeling..

as you guys know that now the most hot news in town is...can guess? it's MAN U fever!!!! hahahahahaha...after sometime without silverware, now, i mean this season WE WILL WIN THE CUPS!!!!! I'm telling you guys!!! I'm so excited about it and for the sake of all mankind, man u really have to win all the cups..it has been a very long time and it's pays now...with this team that we are having right now, i personally feel that we are capable of winning it big this time. as you can see my words down my blog, a history in a making. it's going to happen again. really positive...im so happy!!!

1st words....

hello!! welcome to my blog...obviously i don't have any idea how to start, so bare with me la ya..i just started my blog, and i think this is the thing that i should have now. why? because i feel that i need to have a space to spill all what i have in my mind currently. don't you guys think so? OK let's not take it too long, let's get started. this blog will be the journal of my experience. i will write down everything that i think very "in" now, very controversy, debacle, and etc...so i hope that you guys out there have patience with me. I'm going to stop now and will write more soon. see ya..