new leaf....

hey all....how are you guys doing? how's the weekend? my weekend? mmmm...i miss my lovely girlfriend because she has been away for 4 days.she went back to her hometown. damn! i miss her dearly. argh!! she just a lovely girl. when i think about it, i found out that i'm quite lucky because i've been getting a lovely person to be beside me all along. last time there was my lovely ex-fiancee. Siti Erlyna Umran @ Lyna @ Cat. she was great. very lovely, supportive, caring etc. now the girl that i met also very lovely and i know that if this time i let it slip away, i just let myself turn to be gay. no offence to the gays out there. i'm pro. hahaha! i know, i know. it just over with Lyna and started all over again with other girl. guys, this is God's work. written its going to be happen like this. what i had with Lyna was very meaningful and if it not the years that we been through together, i bet we must be married by now. but didn't work as planned. so, i thought the best thing for both of us is to go on separate way. i know it might sound little bit bold but face the world. we live in real live. the best that i could give her are my support and prayers. talk about my girlfriend, i just noticed that when you are in love, you just started all over again. even thought it quite tiring but hey, do you want it to make it happen? i want it. so, work it out man!! this is the 1st time i think i'm revealing this to the public if i'm not mistaken. yeah, i'm committed myself to Yantie Fadhlina. she is the rose in my garden right now. simply irresistible. that the best words to describe her. this will be the beginning of another chapter in my life. i pray to the Lord above, let it be my last and forever.

God, please hear me....

this time i want to tell you out there that i'm in deep shit of trouble. i know that i shouldn't whine about it but i just can't take it anymore. i'm so fucked up as my sessions in the bank are reducing and my sales are still at nowhere. man, what should i do now? am i not working as hard as i used to? am i was playing around all this while? am i not doing anything to move forward towards the victory? i just don't know what i should do now? i know that if AD knows about it, he will be very piss off with me. still has time for this while nothing on the board!!! fuck man!! i'm just sick of it all!!! GOD, please help me deal with this!! give me strength to strive myself towards the goals and please do not make me go broke!!!