i feel shitty...

time has run so fast and sometime i think of could not coop with it. many of the thing i'd seen has vanish as time goes by as well as something i used to have last time. for example, my life. my life was very plain and dull in sense of i have everything. it doesn't mean it wasn't interesting. it was but i would rather say it was bored because there was no challenge on it. hehehe..for example my relationship......argh, man i am just annoyed with what i just had. a conversation with.....i just don't understand what does she think? i wish i could understand it more but nope. at this moment, i just annoyed, frustrated and upset. but she 's an adult. so i guess i don't need to think for her as she can think by herself. what good to her is best for her. i just hope that she knows what is she's doing. not in my position to talk anymore. now, i would focus all my strength and thought to other who would want to listen to me only. that's all i can do. shit, i feel shitty..

something about me....

hello everybody....here again...there's something interesting i would love to share to all of you out there...really. i bet all of you can't wait to know what is it about am i right? as i'm writting this entry, tell you guys the truth, i really don't know what to write but i just feel that i need to write something. hahaha....gotcha! yesterday was a fabulous! why? i dont know why. there is no explanation of it. it was just simply incredible, wonderful. i don't want to talk about it more... as for today, i was planning spend the rest of the day by relaxing, rejuvenate myself. in other words, i'm going to make a house spa at home. hahaha!! hey, stop there! this is more interesting man! i just developed a new hobby....reading poems!! i found out it quite interesting as i learn a lot new words but some of it it really give me a headache. but hey, don't you think its cool? i think it is..some of it about life, society, relationship, love, dark, and many more. i don't know where does it come from... i mean the interest. but i think its not to bad. the idea was just for me to get to know the new words that sounds very intergalactic...haha..i think it started when get started to write in this blog. don't you guys think? 7 years back, i bought this one book called sophie's world by jostein gaarder. but that time it was just to impressed my girlfriend back then. i wasn't really read the book...hahaha! but now, i actually feel that i'm really in the situation of the story. doesn't it sound amazing? so...perhaps i just get started enjoying life now. so lets hope it going to last......

goodbye puasa...welcome raya

hello guys....how is everybody? i'm here doing just fine, little bit good than bad a bit less than great. just fine. so here we meet again. i want to share something with you guys out there about raya. it is such an anticipated festival right? i guess so. for kids i think it is but for us, i mean for me i guess not that much awaited because why? i'm more enjoy the fasting month than the raya month. i don't know but for me puasa month is the best of all. when i look back from the starting of the month, i found out there was a lots of activity that i wanted to do most of the years. which i think everybody would agree with me, or not. ok lets discuss why? there is a lots of thing that would happen during this month. things like bump into someone that years you haven't meet before, an old friends call and wish you wishes, bump into exs, meeting long time friends, meet new friends, and many more. if i list it down i think it would be half of the page is full. but the best thing is getting to do something special once in a year with your loved one. breakfast together, pre-dawn meal together. for me, even thought its not that grand event but it just happen once a year. am i right? i do miss it when it over because the experience was just an extraordinary. the feeling of feasting with your loved one is so much different during the month. why? do not ask me that. for sure i cant give you an exact answer.