angel on fire....

this is a sad story to tell you guys...but i will do my best to deliver it to you guys out there.... so here we go....i'm really trap between situation that i thought i can be a peacekeeper....like the UN, but its appear the other way around. my intention here is to become a friend for both of them, but end up just one of them sees me as a friend not the other one..the other one even cursed me!! i'm being labelled as two faces la, not honest la, too cute la, that's just nasi tambah...hehe ...mmmm...what should i do? i was born to be cute, come on!! i do my best to keep it easy for everybody but the grudge is deep. it wasn't my intention to keep one party only, i would do anything to keep them both!!! i hope they can see my real intention soon..no hidden agenda..its truly because of friendship. sometime i think why do i bother to help them? why do i bother to take notice about their problem? why? i don't know why i willing jumped into their problem at first place...maybe that time i wasn't aware this could be happen. and trust me, if i aware of it, i wouldn't dare to put myself in this situation. but past is past. i don't care what anymore....but i'm truly sad..

simply fine..

this morning i woke up early man. do you guys want to know why? i have to be in axis p.j around 8.45 am for photo shooting. it was for my profile that will be stick on the wall for the members to get to know me more better. hahaha...i don't know what does it sounds like but its good though. so last night i locked my alarm at 6.30am. man i was so excited!! but end up woke up at 7.20am..hehehe thanks to mama. if not i will still be in bed now...i took a very quick shower, and took off around 7.30am...haha quick rite? so..here we go, i arrived around 8.20am, and i still have 20 minutes left rite? i did number 2 and anything else la. when the time arrived, i went down stairs for the session. then i found out that i was the only one who arrived. the rest of the trainers still haven't arrive yet. argh!! nevermind, its my fault. i was forgot about the k.l timing. when it says 8.45am its mean 9.15am!!! duh..lets go to the story..so when everybody arrived, the session get started la. i was the 4th person on the list. first it was 2 guys from manulife. then hezree. hezree session took quite sometime because he's wearing a specs rite? so the photographer had to adjust hezree position to not let the reflection of his specs gonna appear in the photo. then my turn, while the photo guy was setting up my position, i was look at the photo that hezree took and its appeared to be ok la. and i was ask to stand on the position. it just took me a while only for my session. i was surprised my boss so handsome and lean!!! that wrote by him..mmm..i was so surprised it took me just a while and i felt like being cheated man . i ask the photo guy,

" why so quick one? are u trying to con me?" then he said, "oh no, we dont have an intention to cheat you, you just simply photogenic"...end of the story... hahahahaha

brain storming!!!

i just can't see how you guys out there can stand for an hours sitting in front of P.C and write a long story for publish it to the internet. what makes it so fascinating ha? its hard for me to do so. i just read one blog just now, it was recommended by my fiancee. it's called,

" SEMUSIM DI NERAKA"

from what i heard, this blog quiet popular and even had been review in the newspaper last time. so i decided to check out what really makes it so popular. and i found out it was quiet entertaining. but not entertain enough as mine..(hahahahaha) just kidding. i couldn't believe that this dude can write that many stories. i think he better get a job as an editor at suratkhabar METRO. he's good!! and from there i got this idea what am i writting now. for me it's quiet challenging. i never train my brain to go beyond my capabilities of thinking. this is extraordinary for me if you guys out there want to know. but now i'm jammed!! shit!! see you soon la..

mmmmm....

hello everybody, how you guys out there doing? at first i don't have anything to write but then, jane's car got bang and now she very mery mad until she want to slap me on the face...she won't slap me..that what she said..she want to slap kenn.. and finally i have something to write about..it has been a long time i didn't write anything in here am i right? so now i'm back!! shit man...i'm so tensed, pressured and horny at the same time..i think that is because the tribulus effect. my boss has been asking me why i didn't update my blog anymore? i said

" dude, i don't have any idea to write." and he said, " just write anything that had been happening around this few days la."

then i think,

" yeah, why don't i just write anything from what ever that has been happened around for this few days."

so, it started like this, last week has been very good and bad week. why? this is life man. nothing in this world would appear to be nice all the time. something must go wrong. same thing goes with my game plan. F@#k!! there goes my story, i made a pact with terence about our sales plan. early of the month we both should reach our quater budget as we did that last month. but the only person who doing that right now is terence. argh!!!! and my water retention body boss keep ask me,

" mana saya sales?" its mean " where's my sales?"

can u spot the faults? yaya..that's him...until now i still don't have anything on the table yet. this is pressuring man..but i'm cool and i can handle this problem. and to tell u the truth, desmond is a gay...hallelujah!! everyday he 's been asking me for my C#@K, man another pressure!!! just kidding. do i have to give it to him or not?hahaha...hey lets get back to the early topic. i got a pending sales but until she pay for that session then i can relax a bit. just a bit. now in my bank, the session getting less and less day by day. sometimes i feel afraid to conduct a session. this can't be happening man. i have to do something about it. i can't effort to loose a session without top it up back!!! argh!!! do you guys want to know more longer i'm writting this shit, more tense i can be. argh!!!!

"where my sales?!!!!!".

and the best of the week was, we had KFC just now for our club launch. thats for now. ciao..

those days...

hello again...today is sunday morning..and yep, i'm working!!..this morning was raining heavily and i came here by bike...guess la how was i this morning..haha...lucky i have another uniform in my everyday locker. so....argh!!! let's not talk about that...the reason im writing is to tell you guys a story about how cool i was ten years back...hahaha...just kidding. but yes it's true that i was a cool dude back then..hahaha...because why? my passion for music was not a debacle issue. musics was everything to me. i was influenced by Metallica, Slayer, Megadeth, Anthrax, Guns n Roses, Nirvana, CockSparrer, The bussines many more. i was a skinhead when i was 14 year old. and that how it was started....as for any other teenager, i got influenced by all those thing that i thought it was cool. so i became one la. but it never last long in my heart because the idea was not suit my point of view.all those national front shit was not for me. so from there....i started to listen to punk music at first. Greenday...how punk is that? hahaha.....and at last God had sent me a message...HARDCORE AS FUCK!!!! Yeyo!!! hardcore is the music of my heart. no doubt about it....for me a band like Youth of today, Warzone, Chain of strenght, Judge, Bold, Sick of it all, Rykers, Madball, Ignite, Shelter, etc.. was my heroes and still in my heart...in my blood, in my soul....especially Youth of today and Chain of strenght. the lyrics are so positives and its all about togetherness... the spirit that no one can ever took away from us...i was proud of it.. youth crew spirit!!!! until now i still listen to my old collection but not as many as i have it last time. i gave it out to my friends and damn i miss listen to them. now i listen from the Last.fm only...but still in my keeps are Snapcase and Boysetsfire only and victory's comp. i forgot the title. but hey, no problem i still can listen to them online..so thank to last.fm to make me feel good one more time..write more..ciao

the day that the sun don't shine....

as you guys knows already that champion's league finalist are liverpool and milan right?..and as i watched the game this morning...i can accept the losing because the whole campaign we'd been using the same group of players. so all the players are basically fatigue from the last matches. but surely one thing that is, milan was a tremendous side which i prefer to lose to them rather that to lose to chelsea, liverpool. hey we still have league title and f.a cup to redeem ourself. as you guys knows as for the league title, we almost recapture the title back this season. it has been 4 years without silverware and i personally think this is the time to bring it back to old trafford. so basically i'm quiet happy for the whole performance by the team and i think sir alex also has the same opinion as me..so ill write more soon...ciao

never get enough!!!!

from the title up there, perhaps you guys must be wondering what is the thing that i never get enough with. am i right? yeah..i never get enough with what i have now. the knowledge. beside football, my passion for martial arts is very deep. any styles, any forms will do. i think that what took me to this job. i will get to a point that someone actually cant imagines to gain the knowledge. for me neither the styles nor forms is important, but the journey. it can be very experience, very tough, very painful, very hurt, very colorful, challenging and wonderful one. never about the destination! when i think about it, i feel like being a kid again. im so excited and actually i can even talk about it for an hour. full of surprises.... martial arts and weight training is inseparable. in order to get the strength and balance, one must train with weight. not only weight, the combination of plyometric and functional training will get a martial artist to their peak performance. obviously, training is very important and to have a proper programme also make the differences between you and the other martial artist. even me needs a programme. truly because i need to be train consistently and constant. so that i will be ready for any unforeseen circumstances, tourney or championship. my goal is to get at my very very best performance by early next year because i have something coming up. i don't know when, but by the time has come, ill be at my very very best... now a day, im more into total body combat. do you have any idea what is that? let me explain to you guys. have you guys watch UFC? PRIDE? No Hold Barred? it's something with no rules!!! whether you submit or you make your opponent tap out or k.o. what do you think? interesting? for me yes. because it's challenge the will. if you have a strong will, you will not tap out, but maybe k.o. (hahahahaha)....i've been learning martial arts like forever..from different form to different style...but never get enough..sometimes i wonder when will journey end...but i dont give a damn about that....i just want to pursue my dream...and im dreaming at daylight.....do you know what's that mean? figure it out by yourself....