a diction - awe

ehem....

2010-05-08T13:03:00.003+08:00

hello and selamat tengahari to all Malaysian...it has been a while ya? well, now im back with this shit again..hehehe... i would like wish to all momma out there!!! selamat hari ibu!!! this morning about 10am, i called my mama...damn...i miss her so much. thought of go back but tight with work...really? well...that's were always the reason. her birthday is just around is the corner. and im really wants to go back home to her...me and wife left house for almost 2 months now. im happy with my life now as a husband. but not happy as son.....im just a spoil and stubborn brat. why can this thing all gone? why it must have this unsatisfied feeling? good thing is, now i know that i love her so much....being far from her give me back the all memories of being with her all this years....not just that, i also miss my 2 little prince and princess that always have spot deep down in my heart...qistina and qawiem...pak long will come back to both of you soon...

whore and bitch...

2009-10-23T17:24:00.002+08:00

well....everyone of us would encounter this situation...situation of when we at the top, we will fall down....let me tell you the feeling... the feeling is enormously hurt!..this is the time that really put us in the challenge of life. for some of us out there, it seems to be easy to say but if this really happen to them, would they can manage to up back? some can, but how hard? that the question..life is bitch and whore...well, if it is bitch, the time is now...feeling down. if it is whore, the feeling like fucking around the town 24-7 like no other business...so the moral of it, stay fuck up! you'll never be down with the bitches again...

cow head or your head....

2009-08-31T23:24:00.002+08:00

i believe this is the strong prove of true islam practice and this will correct the perception of the non-mulim. enjoy reading this...

NO HOLDS BARRED

Raja Petra Kamarudin

Jerusalem was central to the spiritual identity of Muslims from the very beginning of their faith. When the Prophet Muhammad first began to preach in Mecca in about 612, according to the earliest biographies, which are our primary source of information about him, he had his converts prostrate themselves in prayer in the direction of Jerusalem. They were symbolically reaching out toward the Jewish and Christian God, whom they were committed to worshipping, and turning their back on the paganism of Arabia. Muhammad never believed that he was founding a new religion that cancelled out the previous faiths. He was convinced that he was simply bringing the old religion of the One God to the Arabs, who had never been sent a prophet before.

Consequently, the Koran, the inspired scripture that Muhammad brought to the Arabs, venerates the great prophets of the Judeo-Christian tradition. It speaks of Solomon's "great place of prayer" in Jerusalem, which the first Muslims called City of the Temple. Only after the Jews of Medina rejected Muhammad did he switch orientation and instruct his adherents to pray facing Mecca, whose ancient shrine, the Kabah, was thought by locals to have been built by Abraham and his son Ishmael, the father of the Arabs.

The centrality of Jerusalem in Muslim spirituality is apparent in the story of Muhammad's mystical Night Journey to Jerusalem. Muslim texts make it clear that this was not a physical experience but a visionary one (not dissimilar to the heavenly visions of the Jewish Throne Mystics at this time). One night Muhammad was conveyed miraculously from the Kabah to Jerusalem's Temple Mount. There he was welcomed by all the great prophets of the past before ascending through the seven heavens. On his way up he sought the advice of Moses, Aaron, Enoch, Jesus, John the Baptist and Abraham before entering the presence of God. The story shows the yearning of the Muslims to come from far-off Arabia right into the heart of the monotheistic family, symbolized by Jerusalem.

Respect for other faiths was manifest in Islamic Jerusalem. When Caliph Umar, one of Muhammad's successors, conquered the Jerusalem of the Christian Byzantines in 638, he insisted that the three faiths of Abraham coexist. He refused to pray in the Church of the Holy Sepulcher when he was escorted around the city by the Greek Orthodox Patriarch. Had he done so, he explained, the Muslims would have wanted to build a mosque there to commemorate the first Islamic prayer in Jerusalem.

The Jews found their new Muslim rulers far more congenial than the Byzantines. The Christians had never allowed the Jews to reside permanently in the city, whereas Umar invited 70 Jewish families back. The Byzantines had left the Jewish Temple in ruins and had even begun to use the Temple Mount as a garbage dump.

Umar, according to a variety of accounts, was horrified to see this desecration. He helped clear it with his own hands, reconsecrated the platform and built a simple wooden mosque on the southern end, site of al-Aqsa Mosque today.

Jerusalem's Dome of the Rock, built by Caliph Abd al-Malik in 691, was the first great building to be constructed in the Islamic world. It symbolizes the ascent that all Muslims must make to God, whose perfection and eternity are represented by the circle of the great golden dome. Other Islamic shrines on the Temple Mount, which Muslims call al-Haram al-Sharif, the Most Noble Sanctuary, were devoted to David, Solomon and Jesus.

After the bloodbath of the Crusades, when Saladin re-conquered Jerusalem for Islam in 1187, the Jews (barred from the city by the Crusaders) were invited to return, and even the Western Christians, who had supported the crusading atrocities, were allowed back. In the 16th century, Ottoman Sultan Suleiman the Magnificent permitted the Jews to make the Western Wall their official holy place and had his court architect Sinan build an oratory for them there.

So why the rejectionism that some Muslims in Jerusalem display today? In history, a holy city has always become more precious to a people after they have lost it. In the struggle for survival, the more compassionate traditions tend to get lost. As Muslims the world over feel that Jerusalem is slipping from their grasp, some espouse an intolerance that is far from the Koranic spirit. In an age in which religious atrocity occurs in nearly all faiths, it would be tragic if the Muslim tradition of inclusion and respect were lost to the world.

Karen Armstrong is the author of Islam: A Short History and, more recently, Buddha

Time Magazine,16 April 2001

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Omar in Jerusalem

The Caliph left Ali in Medina as his deputy and himself left for Jerusalem. He had only one attendant with him and only one camel to ride. Omar and the attendant rode the camel by turns. It happened to be the servant's turn to ride on the day when they were to reach Jerusalem. "Commander of the Faithful," said the attendant, "I give up my turn. It will look awkward, in the eyes of the people, if I ride and you lead the camel."

"Oh no," replied Omar, "I am not going to be unjust. The honour of Islam is enough for us all."

Abu Obaid, Khalid, Yazid and other officers of the army went some distance to receive the Caliph. All of them were wearing silk cloaks. This made Omar angry. He took some pebbles and threw them at his generals, saying, "Have you changed so much in just two years? What dress is this? Even if you had done this two hundred years from now, I would have dismissed you."

The officers replied, "Commander of the Faithful, we are in a land where the quality of clothes worn tells the rank of a man. If we wear ordinary clothes, we will command little respect among the people. However, we are wearing our arms underneath the silken robes."

This answer cooled down the anger of the Caliph.

Next the Caliph signed the treaty of peace. It ran as follows:

"From the servant of Allah and the Commander of the Faithful, Omar: The inhabitants of Jerusalem are granted security of life and property. Their churches and crosses shall be secure. This treaty applies to all people of the city. Their places of worship shall remain intact. These shall neither be taken over nor pulled down. People shall be quite free to follow their religion. They shall not be put to any trouble..."

The gates of the city were now opened. Omar went straight to the Temple of David (Masjid-i-Aqsa). Here he said his prayer under David's Arch.

Next he visited the biggest Christian church of the city. He was in the church when the time for the afternoon prayer came.

"You may say your prayers in the church," said the Bishop.

"No," replied Omar, "if I do so, the Muslims may one day make this an excuse for taking over the church from you."

So he said his prayers on the steps of the church. Even then, he gave the Bishop a promise in writing. It said that the steps were never to be used for congregational prayers nor was the Adhan [call to prayer] to be said there.

By Prof. Fazl Ahmad who has written many books on Islam, the Prophet Muhammad and the Caliphs

Why do Malaysians march?

2009-08-31T23:04:00.004+08:00

this entry were taken from sunsurf.com. this entry is the reason why do Malaysian really needs to "bersatu hati" about injustice system acceptance (I.S.A). lets get together because when we done here in this world, we will leave our children behind with the same shit, and its gonna be a lot of shit.....

stolen fromYeo Yang Poh

On the move ... a section of anti-ISA protesters near
the National Mosque in Kuala Lumpur on Saturday.

WHY march, when the government has said that it will review the Internal Security Act? Why march, when there are other very cosy ways of giving your views and feedback?

One would understand if these were questions posed by nine-year-olds. But they are not. They are questions posed by the prime minister of this nation we call our home. Answer we must. So, why?

Because thousands who died while in detention cannot march or speak any more. That is why others have to do it for them.

Because persons in the corridors of power, persons who have amassed tremendous wealth and live in mansions, and persons who are in the position to right wrongs but won’t, continue to rule our nation with suffocating might. And they certainly would not march. They would prevent others from marching.

Because the have-nots, the sidelined, the oppressed, the discriminated and the persecuted have no effective line to the powerful.

Because the nice ways have been tried ad nauseam for decades, but have fallen on deaf ears.

Because none of the major recommendations of Suhakam (including on peaceful assembly), or of the commissions of inquiry, has been implemented. Because the proposed Independent Police Complaints and Misconduct Commission (IPCMC) is not in sight, while corruption and insecurity live in every neighbourhood; and (despite reasoned views expressed ever so nicely in opposition) Rela (people’s volunteer corps) is being brought in to make matters even worse.

The proponents in “Su Qiu” (remember them?) were not marchers. In fact it is hard to find nicer ways than “su qiu”, because the term means “present and request” or “inform and request”. In terms of putting forward a view or a request, it is the height of politeness. Yet they were labelled “extremists” – they who did not march.

And now you ask, why march?

Because you gave non-marchers a false name! You called them the “silent majority”, who by virtue of their silence (so you proudly argued with twisted logic) were supporters of government policies since they were not vocal in raising objections. You claimed to be protecting the interest of the “silent majority”. Now some of them do not want to be silent anymore, and you are asking why?

Yes, because double standards and hypocrisy cannot be covered up or explained away forever; and incompetence cannot be indefinitely propped up by depleting resources.

Because cronyism can only take care of a few people, and the rest will eventually wake up to realise the repeated lies that things were done in certain ways purportedly “for their benefit”.

Because the race card, cleverly played for such a long time, is beginning to be seen for what it really is – a despicable tool to divide the rakyat for easier political manipulation.

Because it does not take much to figure out that there is no good reason why Malaysia, a country with abundant human resources and rich natural resources, does not have a standard of living many times higher than that of Singapore, an island state with no natural resources and that has to import human resources from Malaysia and elsewhere.

Because, in general, countries that do not persecute marchers are prosperous or are improving from their previous state of affairs, and those that do are declining.

Because Gandhi marched, Mandela marched, Martin Luther King marched, and Tunku Abdul Rahman marched.

Because more and more people realise that peaceful assemblies are no threat at all to the security of the nation, although they are a threat to the security of tenure of the ruling elite.

Because politicians do not mean it when they say with a straight face or a smile that they are the servants and that the people are the masters. No servant would treat his master with tear gas, batons and handcuffs.

Because if the marchers in history had been stopped in their tracks, places like India, Malaysia and many others would still be colonies today, apartheid would still be thriving in South Africa, Nelson Mandela would still be scribbling on the walls of Cell 5, and Obama would probably be a slave somewhere in Mississippi plotting to make his next midnight dash for the river.

And because liberty, freedom and dignity are not free vouchers posted out to each household.

They do not come to those who just sit and wait. They have to be fought for, and gained.

And if you still want to ask: why march; I can go on and on until the last tree is felled. But I shall
obviously not.

I will end with the following lines from one of the songs sung in the 1960s by civil rights marchers in the US, without whom Obama would not be able to even sit with the whites in a bus, let alone reside in the White House:

“It isn’t nice to block the doorway
It isn’t nice to go to jail
There are nicer ways to do it
But the nice ways have all failed
It isn’t nice; it isn’t nice
You’ve told us once, you’ve told us twice
But if that’s freedom’s price
We don’t mind ...”

Yeo Yang Poh is a former Bar Council president. Comments: letters@thesundaily.com.

health and fitness during ramadhan

2009-08-20T23:45:00.004+08:00

another 2 days we will welcome ramadhan. and this is the 3rd year i celebrate ramadhan as a pt (personal trainer) at fitness first. hence that i have some tips for you guys out there to stay in shape during ramadhan and perhaps take this opportunity to lose more of that extra kilos. here we go, 1st and foremost got to stay wet...heheh i mean hydrate but not in the daylight ya. breakfast time, drink a lot of plain water and continue doing that until bedtime. avoid soda drinks, sweet drinks. go slowly with foods and start with small portion. doesn't mean that cant take rice but make it later maybe after tarawih. that's with food. while during daylight, ramadhan should never be an excuse for you stop training. stay with your training regime but take lightly on cardio exercise. you don't want to lose water when training. focus on strength training and core training to generate BMR (basal metabolic rate). i reckons this will help bit with your plan to stay in shape and lets make it real. real people, real result.

new season

2009-08-09T23:57:00.003+08:00

the new season has kick off guys!! wuhu!! now im watching the charity shield man u vs chelsea and this is the opening for season opener. we will conquer the league again and this time we gonna make the 4th title in a row. lets go man u!!

babi betol!!

2009-08-05T15:10:00.003+08:00

tiap kali laporan mengenai demonstrasi jalanan oleh penghasut2 media kerajaan BN yang tak habis mengipas bontot "penderhaka-penderhaka rakyat" menulis laporan, mesti mengaitkan kerugian yang dialami semasa kejadian tersebut. dilaporkan sekitar rm200 juta, malaysia telah rugi..ok, berhenti sekejap..tak habis2 cerita pasal duit...selama demonstrasi itu dijalankan dianggarkan sebanyak rm200 juta telah kerugian...kapitalism memang menjana ekonomi sesebuah negara tapi ini bukan isu kerugian yang dialami..ini adalah hak asasi manusia yang telah lama dicabuli. laporan tersebut jika di kampung2 luar bandar kl...memang penduduk kampung semua terpengaruh dan menguatkan lagi cengkaman kuku besi "kerajaan langit BN" terhadap mereka. apa yang mereka tak sedar adalah bahwa wang yang patut disumbangkan kepada mereka yang susah di kampung tu yang kalau hujan, nak pergi menoreh pun tak dapat..yang kat laut tu nak pergi ke laut pun takut ombak kuat...telah di"10%" oleh "sialan-sialan" tu. ini bukan pasal duit! ini adalah untuk menuntut keadilan!!

yasmin...

2009-07-27T22:48:00.002+08:00

sampai sekarang aku masih berasa sedih dengan berita kematian yasmin ahmad. seorang yang berbakat besar, berani, berbudi bahasa, baik hati, patriotik dan banyak lagi. aku memang tak kenal beliau secara dekat namun hasil kerja beliau yang sungguh jujur dan telus membuatkan aku meratapi pemergian yasmin ahmad. kerugian besar sedang kita alami dan sebenarnya lebih parah dari kemerunduman ekonomi sekarang. kita semua telah miskin dengan pemergian beliau dan apa yang ditinggalkan beliau adalah karya beliau yang kaya. karya arahan beliau unggul kerana diterima seluruh lapisan masyarakat tak kira keturunan. sungguh sayu hati ni mendapat tahu akan pemergian beliau yang semuda itu. memang aku jangkakan yang beliau akan pergi setelah menderita strok, tapi aku masih kaget dan sayu. semoga roh beliau dicucuri rahmat yang Maha Esa. aku berserah..

MURDERER!!

2009-07-17T12:56:00.003+08:00

sad to know the news today. one life simply taken by protecting ones interest. how cheap is that? is murder is not a sin now? it's really ashamed if this can be tolerate. i don't know what values do we have before ringgit...money does make people being cruel to each other. no one not effected by that. even imam in masjid besar, if given a 10000 ringgit to nikah haram, they would do. lets talk about principle here, there's no! money rules everything but it get worst when comes along POWER!..this is deadly combination. just look at what happened to today news, teo beng hock was murdered! just because he had witnessed one perlakuan rasuah. he's about to register his wedding today for god sake!! how the hell do u think his soon to be wife would feel? this is purely injustice and crime! i don't trust anymore any government body. their interest is just to keep their interest alive only and only their. this is saddening and ashamed! i love this country so much but the government, i hate more and more this day..so long comrade TEO BENG HOCK!!

henry gurney

2009-06-24T00:01:00.004+08:00

DALAM NEGERI

Papan tanda bagi ingati pembunuhan Henry Gurney

KUALA KUBU BHARU 21 Jun – Dalam beratus-ratus kenderaan yang melalui Jalan Kuala Kubu Bharu untuk ke pusat peranginan Bukit Fraser setiap hari, mungkin tidak ramai yang tahu bahawa salah satu selekoh di jalan itu pernah menjadi saksi kepada satu peristiwa berdarah yang menggegarkan negara.
Bagi mengajak orang ramai dan pelancong luar mengimbau semula peristiwa pembunuhan Pesuruhjaya Tinggi British di Tanah Melayu Sir Henry Lovell Goldsworthy Gurney, Pejabat Daerah dan Tanah Hulu Selangor mengambil inisiatif meletakkan sebuah papan tanda di lokasi berlaku tragedi berdarah di selekoh itu.
Pegawai Daerahnya, Nor Hisham Ahmad Dahlan berkata, perletakan papan tanda itu dibuat supaya orang ramai yang melalui jalan itu dapat memperingati dan mengimbau semula peristiwa hitam itu.
“Ramai yang melalui jalan ini untuk ke Bukit Fraser tidak tahu di sini terpahat satu peristiwa bersejarah di mana seorang pegawai British ditembak mati oleh pengganas komunis,” katanya ketika ditemui selepas majlis perletakan papan tanda itu di sini, semalam.
Beliau berkata, papan tanda berkenaan diletakkan sebagai sebagai satu ‘monumen’ untuk mengingatkan orang ramai dan pelancong luar mengenai peristiwa bersejarah itu.
Katanya, dengan adanya usaha itu, diharapkan masyarakat terutamanya golongan muda lebih maklum mengenai sejarah negara dan lebih menghargai keamanan yang dicapai negara hari ini.
“Jika sebelum ini mereka hanya membaca kisah pembunuhan itu di dalam buku-buku sejarah, kami juga mahu pelawat-pelawat yang datang ke sini melihat dengan mata kepala mereka sendiri lokasi sebenar pembunuhan Henry Gurney,” katanya.
Henry Gurney yang berumur 53 tahun ketika itu, merupakan Ketua Setiausaha Pentadbiran Inggeris di Palestin sebelum dilantik menjadi Pesuruhjaya Tinggi Inggeris di Tanah Melayu pada 13 September 1948.
Henry Gurney mati ditembak dalam satu serangan hendap oleh pengganas komunis di Batu 56 1/2, Jalan Kuala Kubu Bharu-Bukit Fraser pada 7 Okt 1951, semasa beliau dikatakan bersama isteri dan setiausaha peribadinya D.J. Staples sedang dalam perjalanan dari Kuala Lumpur ke Bukit Fraser.
Kira-kira 12 kilometer sebelum sampai di Bukit Fraser, kereta Rolls Royce yang dinaiki mereka dan dipandu oleh seorang Konstabel Mohd. Din dengan kibaran bendera Union Jack, menjadi sasaran peluru komunis. – Bernama

aku cuba sedaya upaya untuk memahami kenapa papan tanda peringatan untuk henry gurney di naikkan disitu. apakah signifikannya terhadap perjuangan kemerdekaan negara? siapakah henry gurney? dia adalah pesuruhjaya tinggi british di tanah melayu yang pada ketika itu menjajah tanah melayu. kalau dia diberi sebegitu penghormatan, bagaimana dengan J.W.W Birch? taknak dibuatkan juga papan tanda sebagai penghormatan? kenapalah sungguh benak dungu pemikiran kebanyakan pemimpin di negara ini? penghormatan diberikan kepada penjajah dan anak watan yang memperjuangkan kemerdekaan tanah air, dipenjara, dihukum, dibuang daerah dan yang paling sedih dibunuh.

homage for satan!!!

2009-06-17T21:39:00.005+08:00

Deicide is an American death metal band formed in 1987. Their first two albums, Deicide and Legion, are ranked second and third place in best-selling death metal albums of the Soundscan era.

As Amon (1987-1989)

Deicide was formed in Tampa, Florida July 21, after guitarist Brian Hoffman called Glen Benton, replying to an advertisement the latter had placed in a local music magazine. They are influenced by bands such as Destruction, Sodom, Venom, Bathory, Possesed, Death and Slayer. Within days the band, consisting of Benton (bass/vocals), Hoffman, Hoffman's brother Eric (guitars) and Steve Asheim (drums), had been named Amon after the Egyptian deity.Within a month, Amon had recorded crude Feasting the Beast 8-track demo in Benton's garage and had started playing the occasional gig in the Tampa area. In 1989, Amon recorded their second demo, Sacrificial, at Morrisound with producer Scott Burns.

However, before being known as Amon, the band was known as Carnage: "Carnage consisted of 5 members the 2 members were let go. Glen was found in a local music magazine. We had him play bass. And another singer was hired. He could not phrase properly so he was let go. Then we decided have Glen sing. Amon was brought into this world."- Eric Hoffman

Malevolent Creation guitarist Phil Fasciana recalls an early Amon show: "It was like Slayer intensified a thousand times." "I guess Amon had hollowed out a mannequin and filled it with fuckin' blood and guts from a butcher shop... and then they threw the fuckin' thing on the floor. Morbid Angel had these pit bulls with them back then and they were just tearing the meat up. It was a really weird scene, man. There was blood and meat everywhere.

As Deicide (1989-2004)

Benton reportedly stormed into Roadrunner Records' A&R man Monte Connors' office and presented him with the demo, saying, "Sign us, you fucking asshole!" The next day contracts were issued to the band. In 1989 the band's name was changed to Deicide at the request of Roadrunner Records, as Amon was the name of the house in the (then fellow Roadrunner artists) King Diamond album "Them". "Deicide" is defined as the act of killing a being of a divine nature, or a symbolic substitute for such a being; a deicide can also be one concerned in putting such a deity to death. "Me and my first wife were visiting family up in Buffalo and we went over to the city with a copy of the demo. Scott Burns had already sent it to Monte, though, and it was actually sitting on his desk. So I walked in and said, "I'm Glen Benton- here's another tape. Don't be an asshole- sign us. I wasn't even back in Buffalo yet when they called in with the contract offer."

Deicide then released their, also produced by Scott Burns at Morrisound, in 1990. Their debut featured re-recorded versions of all six of the Sacrificial tunes that had secured them their record deal.

Both Eric and Brian tended to play technical solos at fast speeds and with overlapping riffs, which gave Deicide the definitive heavy sound and complex song structures. This lineup remained intact until November 25, 2004 in the wake of increasing animosity between Glen Benton and the Hoffman brothers - allegedly in regards to royalties, publishing and the fact that they were Christians.

Post-Hoffman brothers period (2004-present)

Shortly after, the guitar roles were then filled by ex-Cannibal Corpse guitarist Jack Owen, and Vital Remains guitarist Dave Suzuki. Following the tour, Suzuki was replaced by Ralph Santolla, formerly of Death, Iced Earth and Sebastian Bach. Santolla stated he is a Catholic and this has received a small amount of shock and ridicule from some metal fans. In spite of this, Deicide's eighth studio album The Stench of Redemption album received rave reviews, and is one of their biggest sellers yet.

On May 24, 2007, it was announced Ralph Santolla had left Deicide. Subsequently, he joined Florida's Obituary and appears on their album Xecutioner's Return as well as the tour. Then on July 20, 2007 guitarist Jack Owen (ex-Cannibal Corpse) announced that Deicide is "on hiatus" and he has joined Ohio based death/thrash combo Estuary for touring purposes.The band did a Balkan tour, dubbed "Balkans AssassiNation Tour", in October 2007 alongside Krisiun, Incantation and Inactive Messiah.

By November 2007 Deicide began work on its ninth studio album at Florida's Morrisound Studios. Entitled Till Death Do Us Apart, the follow-up to 2006's The Stench of Redemption promises to be Deicide's "most savage and aggressive [offering] to date," according to a press release. Drummer Steve Asheim recorded drum tracks and Benton started recording vocals in December. By April 2008 two songs off this album were posted online.

On January 6, 2009, Deicide posted a blog on their official Myspace page saying they had signed a worldwide record deal with Century Media, with Ralph Santolla returning to the band for a European tour. They are working on material for a summer 2009 release.

Controversy

Deicide has received considerable controversy relating to their albums and lyrics, which include vehement anti-Christian themes, such as "Fuck Your God","Behead The Prophet" and "Scars of the Crucifix", among others. This was reinforced by frontman Glen Benton branding an inverted cross into hisforehead. Drummer Asheim of Deicide said "The whole point of Satanic music is to blaspheme against the church", "I don't believe in or worship a devil. Life is short enough without having to waste it doing this whole organised praying, hoping, wishing-type thing on some superior being".

Ostensibly in order to prove his genuine Satanic nature, Benton claimed in the early 1990s that he would commit suicide at the age of 33, to "mirror" a lifespan opposite that of Jesus Christ. However, he passed that age in 2000 and did not commit suicide. In 2006, he stated that these statements had been "asinine remarks" and that "only cowards and losers" choose to kill themselves.

Deicide has been banned from playing in several venues (such as Valparaiso, Chile over a promotional poster featuring Jesus Christ with a bullet hole in his forehead) and with various festivals such as Hellfest, after several graves had been spray-painted with "When Satan Rules His World", which is a song from Deicide's 1995 album Once Upon the Cross. More recently, their music video for "Homage for Satan", which features blood-splattered zombies on a rampaging mission to capture a priest, was banned from UK music TV channel Scuzz.

In the early 1990s, Deicide was on tour in Europe with Gorefest, a Dutch death metal band. In Stockholm, during Gorefest set, a bomb exploded in the club in which they were playing. The bomb was located to the rear of the stage, behind a heavy fire proof door. The explosion was big enough to deform the door and blow it off its hinges. Deicide managed to play three songs before the police decided to stop the concert and evacuate the club. At first, Benton blamed that attack on the Scandinavian Black Metal scene, where Deicide's brand of death metal was despised, but many people blamed animal rights activists who were angered at Deicide's lyrical themes of animal sacrifice.

Members

Current members

Glen Benton - vocals, bass guitar (1987–present)
Steve Asheim - drums (1987–present), guitar on Till Death Do Us Part
Jack Owen - guitar (2004–present)

Past members

Brian Hoffman - guitar (1987–2004)
Eric Hoffman - guitar (1987–2004)
Ralph Santolla - lead guitar (2005–2007), session member for Till Death Do Us Part, live for Winterfest tour (2009)

Tour members

Dave Suzuki - guitar (2004–2005)
Seth Van Loo - vocals (2007), as substitute for Glen Benton

Discography

Studio albums

Compilations

Amon, Feasting the Beast (1993)
The Best of Deicide (2003)

Live albums

When Satan Lives (1998)
Doomsday L.A. (2007)

childplay...

2009-06-12T12:57:00.005+08:00

i thought school day had gone long ago but i was wrong. well...nothing seems serious but i would say it was a bit of childish. should i be aware of it? maybe i should. didn't see it was coming but hey, i just let it go. some says meeting an old friends would be delighted but what was happened to me were the other way. maybe it was just me thinking that way, but it was just like the way it was to be at school. maybe i wasn't the brightest student but i wasn't the dumb fool either. maybe i should be a aware sometimes people do not grow up. i just rest the case.

me, nagging...

2009-06-07T18:25:00.002+08:00

sometimes people think to much. well...that the norm. when we didn't get the answer right away, we start to make presumption. well as if our brain can figure it out all those unnecessary debate. not all things we can figure it out. for example, the doomsday. can anybody tells me how the world gonna be? how are we gonna survives that? well, that's why we don't have to exaggerate the whole. some matters best just left to be unexplained. perhaps we should be more humble and modest towards the world.

dilema seorang ahli bina badan...

2009-06-06T15:24:00.003+08:00

orang besar dia pun nak jadi besar. angkat berat-berat tapi sampai sekarang dah masuk bulan ke 6 masih lagi macam tu juga rupanya. nak aku tegur, memang dah pun tapi macam tak makan saman je. nak biar, tak boleh sebab nanti member lain ikut. jadi aku nak buat apa?makan supplement dah bertong-tong. tak tahu lagi apa yang nak telan. cerita buat orang bimbang. tengok orang angkat berat-berat dia pun nak tapi injured. macam mana ni bang? macam mana aku nak tolong kau? jalan berkepak macam nak terbang. baju nak ketat je, tapi yang nampak lebih perut. bila aku perbetulkan, pandang sinis kat aku pastu cakap aku pun perut besar. memang aku perut besar sebab aku makan banyak. aku dah cakap aku bukan nak masuk pertandingan. bila aku train dari jauh usha. buat sendiri injured. sebulan relaks kat rumah sebab dah tak boleh angkat. nampak client aku yang dah berjaya, tanya tapi tangguh. susah kalau ingat diri sendiri tu tahu semua benda. aku nak tolong kau, kau eksyen!! sekarang ni, kau buat la sampai cita-cita kau tercapai. aku, kalau kau tanya aku, aku tolong la.

wind of change...

2009-06-03T02:29:00.004+08:00

hello guys, as you noticed i changed my layout. hope it will bring new horizon to this blog and attract more reader. will come back with more strong opinions and perspectives and dynamic thoughts to all of you. so just hanging there ya..ciao..

buku pelita hidup..

2009-05-07T16:35:00.003+08:00

kalau dulu mak aku suruh baca buku, aku punyalah malas...buatlah macam mana, hasilnya sangat mengecewakan..tapi tak lagi sekarang....aku suka buku...sebabnya baru aku sedar akan kebaikan membaca buku ..aku dapat menambah pengetahuan, mencuba kuiz, mengenal negara luar, berpengetahuan mengenai sejarah dan lain-lain. tapi yang paling aku suka sekali, dapat berkenalan dengan teman baru, berjumpa semula teman lama dan macam-macam lagi. semestinya kamu semua agak kaget dan terpinga-pinga bagaimana aku boleh melakukan itu semua padahal aku sekadar membaca buku...ini adalah disebabkan aku baca FACEBOOK dong!! hahahahaha!!!! very lame, i know!!!

laughter is the best medicine 1...

2009-03-30T19:06:00.002+08:00

There are two plastic jugs filled with water. How could you put all of this water into a barrel, without using the jugs or any dividers, and still tell which water came from which jug?

amar makruf, nahi mungkar...

2009-02-20T20:16:00.004+08:00

sedih juga memikirkan pasal keadaan negara yang didalam genggaman orang tamak, kejam, keji, gila kuasa, penderhaka, penindas, penipu dan sebagainya...kalaulah keadaan ini berterusan, Malaysia tidak akan menjadi negara yang aman dan makmur. tapi lebih menjadi negara yang huru-hara dan prejudis. aku sedih kerana masih ada lagi sebilangan besar "makhluk-makhluk" yang tak sedarkan diri dan membiarkan diri terus "lemas" dengan kemewahan yang tak pernah cukup...aku rasa sampai kiamat pun masih lagi nak cari kemewahan, kuasa lagi...bersamalah kita bersatu tangan untuk melawan "makhluk-makhluk" ni dan berjuang untuk keadilan!!!

dare...

2009-02-18T12:08:00.003+08:00

what are the differences between UMNO and Zionism? well....no different at all. just little less killing than Zionis regime did in Gaza Strip but hundred thousand of corruption, oppression, treason and many more only God knows...

laughter the best medicine...

2009-02-13T21:09:00.001+08:00

A murderer is condemned to death. He has to choose between three rooms. The first is full of raging fires, the second is full of assassins with loaded guns, and the third is full of lions that haven't eaten in 3 years - Which room is safest for him?

my heart belongs to her....

2009-02-09T20:14:00.003+08:00

old memories....

2009-02-03T16:35:00.004+08:00

just now i was browsing my facebook on the net...well, comes to my surprise, i found someone really close to my heart before but not now in the FB( facebook la!!)....and not surprising at all that she's now with someone used to hang out with us when we were in college...well, good for both of them...at last they are together.... ;) (big smile on my face)....just that i was wondering why are we not talking to each other literally? did i say something to her that makes her upset/angry/disappoint until she stop talking to me? that's quite sad though because we grew up together for the last 8 years....not by meaning that i want to be back, no, not gonna do that as she's now very happy with her life as i can see that and me as well....just to keep each other company because we just have a history together that's all....maybe not now or never...i don't know. well, what ever it is, always pray for her....may Allah bless her with her family....

laksa penang....

2009-01-25T16:39:00.003+08:00

well im in penang on vacation i suppose....well not at all. i just dont understand why am i here actually....run from hectic life in KL? i dont think so...well i guess it was because i wanted to have a so called " vacation" with my beloved...until she came up with her antic...we were at teluk bahang and i was really excited to go jungle trekking to pulau duyung. but we stop not even half way because she said that wasnt in the plan...what with that? i was so piss until now!!! i thought we could have a very good sitting on the beach front....but news flash people....no!!! im so frustrated!!!! i dont know what have i said to her before that made her change her mood....i just dont know what to do now. luckily i could have my beer and doing this rite now!! well, a girl in front of me is really cute...i guess i could be lucky today!!!

KT oh KT.....

2009-01-19T13:40:00.003+08:00

huge downfall for the BN component party especially UMNO and what a slap-in-the-face!!!!! the lost of KT by-election was unbearable and it's actually a strong signal shown by the rakyat that their political agendas are irrelevant for the rakyat and the arisen of PK now is unstoppable. this is the reform that we waited for so long and now we are coming to it. Najib Razak must be very upset and disappointed as he is coming to become the president of "broken coalition" (BN), and now he's facing a lots of lost. not a good record i would say. more to losing streak. hehe...when they lost in permatang pauh, pak lah was being blame, now who? perhaps they should be more realistic on their words and be more truthful.

losing fat anyone?

2009-01-08T08:52:00.005+08:00

Clenbuterol

NOTICE: This information is for entertainment purposes ONLY!
Full profiles on each individual steroid are here.

Pharmaceutical Name: clenbuterol

Molecular weight of base: 277.193

Effective dose: 40-160 Âµg / day orally Average Street-price: $0.75 - 1.00 per 40Âµg tab

Available Doses: 10,20,40 Âµg tabs, 16 Âµg/ml injection or 25 Âµg/ml oral spray

Brands & Products:

Arzneimittel Werk Dresden
Contraspasmin (G)
20 mcg tabs
Biomedica Foscama
Clenasma
20 mcg tabs
Chinoin
Novegam (MX)
20 mcg tabs
Falqui
Contrasmina (I)
20 mcg tabs
Fidelis
Cesbron (PT)
20 mcg tabs
Juste
Ventolase (ES)
20 mcg tabs
Quimedical
Broncoterol (PT)
20 mcg tabs
Richter
Ventipulmin (A)
16 mcg/ml
Salus
Prontovent (I)
20 mcg tabs
Sopharma Sofia
Clenbuterol Pharmachim (BG)
20 mcg tabs
Thomae
Spiropent (G, A,DK,I,ES,MX,BG,HU,CZ)
20 mcg tabs

Spiropent mite (G)
20 mcg tabs

Spasmo-mucosolvan (G)
20 mcg tabs
Valeas
Monores (I)
20 mcg tabs
Von Boch
Broncodil (I)
20 mcg tabs
Unknown
Oxyflux (MX)
20 mcg tabs
Boehringer-Ingelheim
Ventipulmin
25 mg/ml oral spray (vet.)

Characteristics:

Clenbuterol is a very widely used drug and has quite a reputation. A good one among athletes and recreational users, and a very bad one among those people who know very little about illegal performance enhancing aids. Its not a steroid. In fact, the only medical use for which clenbuterol is generally prescribed (and now being less and less prescribed thanks to its illegitimate use) is for obstructions of the air-way. People with chronic breathing disorders like asthma use this as a bronchodilator to make breathing easier. But its only one of the many things that can be achieved with the use of clenbuterol.

In terms of action this drug is best likened to the now also illegal ephedrine and its legal replacement, ma huang. All of them operate mainly by increasing the manufacture and secretion of catabolic hormones known as cathecholamines (like dopamine, epinephrine (adrenaline) and norepinephrine (noradrenaline)) which are secreted from the adrenal region. Now these hormones have a wide variety of functions. First of all they seem to alter the contractile characteristics of smooth muscle, but very specifically. Some will apparently be stimulated, and others inhibited. Amongst those inhibited, the smooth muscles in the bronchial tree, which explains its soothing effect in patients with breathing problems. What it also does is increase thermogenisis. This usually encompasses a rise in blood pressure, a stimulatory effect of the heart muscle and a resulting rise in body temperature.

Along with the reversing of the effects of insulin (and inhibiting the action of insulin) which results in a release of glycogen back into the blood stream as glucose and an inability to store or use more glycogen, it will increase the rate of protein and fat being burned in the body. For bodybuilders that appears to be the primary use of the drug. This thermogenisis and an increase in the rate of fat being burned usually has as a result that the metabolic rate of the subject its much higher and he burns more calories. This in turn results in loss of adipose tissue (the shedding of fat in other words) revealing a leaner physique with cuts and striations. The downside to this effect is that there is a concomitant rise in the rate of protein being burned. Where fat is robbed from the fatty tissue in the body, protein is generally robbed from the muscle. As with all catabolic hormones, in time muscle loss can and will occur. Which is why many opt to use this compound during a cycle of anabolic steroids that will help preserve the lean body mass while reducing the fat.

Among the other actions that cathecholamines have is an increase in aerobic capacity (facilitated by the easier breathing), a stimulation of the nervous system (facilitated by norepinephrine and acetylcholine release) and thus the skeletal muscle system, an increase in oxygen transportation (facilitated by the increased blood pressure) and an increase in vigil. These characteristics in turn combine to make this drug particularly interesting for athletes doing endurance sports and needing a boost. Especially in middle-long running numbers, this drug is widely abused and its no secret that in cycling circles clenbuterol in liquid form is combined with a painkiller and the drug EPO (synthetic erythropoeitin, a renal hormone) which increases the manufacture of red blood cells. It is then injected along the road, thereby avoiding positive tests prior to the race. Needless to say such a cocktail is very hazardous to the cardiovascular system. Just to demonstrate the wide use of this drug and its immense popularity among athletes, observe the US Olympic team. Exercise-induced asthma is an afflmiction that generally occurs in 3-7% of the population, and is in some rare cases treated with clenbuterol. In 2000 60% of US Olympic athletes claimed to have exercise-induced asthma and ALL of them were prescribed clenbuterol for this condition. An otherwise illegal drug, tolerated solely for this reason. And this while the Romanian gymnast Andrea Raducan was stripped of her gold medal for the 25 Âµg of norephedrine in her cold medicine she was taking...

In several animal studies1,2,3 Clenbuterol was also shown to act as an anabolic, believed to be able to impart muscle gains. This was never demonstrated in humans4 however, and there is more evidence that its effect on catabolic hormones invokes the opposite. In any case, the animal studies used much higher doses5 then one would safely recommend for humans. The late Dan Duchaine, by many held in high regard as a steroid guru and a former writer of the now defunct MM2K, believed it had something to do with the stimulation of a third beta receptor, which was different in humans as opposed to other mammals, and that this was the reason humans did not receive any anabolic benefits. As with most of what Dan said, this is very questionable, but one of many possible explanations in a debate that still rages on. Despite the many claims of other bodybuilders that still swear it has some form of anabolic action, I must say I've seen enough proof to the contrary to strongly advise against buying clenbuterol for promoting muscle mass. You may be more than sorely disappointed. Next time you see a 230 pound, 6 foot top-level cyclist, let me know and I may change my mind.

Clenbuterol, when used for its fat-burning properties is best used in a pyramid scheme. Slowly building up the dose may be more important that tapering off of it, as most first time users will rarely if ever know how they will react. Because of the effects on blood pressure its best to start with 20-40 Âµg per day and slowly work your way up increasing the dose every 3 days by 20 Âµg, to a maximum of 120-160 Âµg (most find 80 Âµg to be adequate). Its also best not used for long periods of time. Body homeostasis seems to negate the excitatory and inhibitive functions of clenbuterol over time, creating a complacency effect. It loses most of its nerve stimulation and fat burning benefits after 3-4 weeks, and using it longer on end would be futile. The user is best to discontinue use for an equal period of time and then recommence again.

Another thing people should be aware of is the inherent liver toxicity associated with clenbuterol use. When stacking with oral 17-alpha-alkylated steroids, accutane, anti-biotics or other hepatoxic elements, one should have his liver values checked by a licensed physician at regular points in time to avoid all problems. If you not a yellow discoloration of the skin cease use immediately and contact your doctor.

Stacking and Use:

Clenbuterol should be built up and tapered off gradually with dosage increases and decreases every 3-4 days and doses never exceeding 160 Âµg per day to be perfectly safe. Its mostly used for periods of 2-3 weeks then discontinued for equal periods of time to disallow the body to adapt to the effects of the drug. For fat-burning goals clenbuterol is often stacked with another fat-burning agent for quick effect, or alternated with another fat-burning agent by people who need to stay lean on a year-round basis. Usually cytomel (T3) is used for such purposes, with alternating cycles of 3 weeks each. If used together, cycles will not completely overlap, but differ slightly so as not to match the low doses with the low and the high doses with the high. A typical cycle for clenbuterol might be 3 weeks, with the daily amounts being

40/40/40/60/60/60/80/80/80/100/100/100/80/80/80/60/60/60/40/40/40 Âµg/day. Then stopping for three weeks and recommencing.

It's also commonly stacked with anabolic steroids. Usually non-aromatizing steroids that give the user a leaner and harder look, and allow for less water retention. They serve a main purpose of allowing the user to keep as much of his hard-earned muscle mass as he tries to shed the fat he has stocked up in the off-season with catabolic precursors such as clenbuterol. Clenbuterol is generally regarded as fairly safe6, hence its wide-spread use. It should be disadvised for all with blood pressure and/or previously diagnosed cardio-vascular problems. But most tolerate it quite well. By building up the dose over time they usually see when they've reached a dose that becomes too harsh. The use of clenbuterol will elicit higher body temperature, higher blood pressure and in some, especially at high doses, insomnia and jitters. Though these should not be nearly as pronounced with clenbuterol as they are with ephedrine and its legal counterpart ma huang. They are also easily remedied by shifting doses around so you don't take clenbuterol in the hours leading up to bedtime and most of it in pre-training phases when the drug can enhance your training vigor.

Another good match for clenbuterol in a stack is the plant derivative yohimbine Hcl. It does concern the standardized product yohimbine here and not the raw material yohimbe, which is useless. In small doses of 20-30 mg per day, it can stop the down-regulation of the noradrenaline feedback mechanisms, that usually inhibit the actions of noradrenaline by reducing receptor affinity. This has two important uses. The first is that the length of action of clenbuterol can be enhanced by a few hours when using it together with yohimbine Hcl (although it already has a considerable half-life time7 of 36 hours and one daily dose should suffice) , and the second is that concomitant use of yohimbine Hcl may allow clenbuterol to induce its fatburning aspects on a longer term than the normal 2-3 weeks, so it can be used for 5-6 weeks instead. Yohimbine Hcl is, at least for now still, a legal supplement that can be acquired for very little money from legal sources and supplement companies.

References

1 Ricart-Firinga C, Stevens L, Canu MH, Nemirovskaya TL, Mounier Y. Effects of beta(2)-agonist clenbuterol on biochemical and contractile properties of unloaded soleus fibers of rat. Am J Physiol Cell Physiol 2000 Mar; 278 (3) : C582-8
2 Hayes A, Williams DA. Long-term clenbuterol administration alters the isometric contractile properties of skeletal muscle from normal and dystrophin-deficient mdx mice. Clin Exp Pharmacol Physiol 1994 Oct; 21 (10) : 757-65
3 Maltin CA, Delday MI, Hay SM, Smith FG, Lobley GE, Reeds PJ. The effects of the anabolic agent, clenbuterol, on overloaded rat skeletal muscle. Biosci Rep 1987 feb; 7 (2) :143-9
4 Human fat cell beta-adrenergic receptors : beta-agonist dependent lipolytic reponses and characterization of beta-adrenergic bindingsiteson human fat cell membranes with highly selective beta-1 agonists. J lipid Res 1988 May; 29 (5) : 587-601
5 Prather ID, Brown DE, North P, Wilson JR. Clenbuterol : a substitute for anabolic steroids ? Med Sci Sports Exerc 1995 Aug; 27 (8) : 1118-21
6 Su WJ, Perng RP. Spiorpent (clenbuterol) : another choice for patients with chronic irreversible airway obtsructions. Chung Hua I Hsueh Tsa Chih (Taipei) 1991 Jan; 47 (1) : 13-7
7 Meinen K, Rahn M, Hermer M, Rominger KL, Kanitz T. Oral tocolytic therapy with clenbuterol - clinical facts. Z Geburtshilfe Perinatol 1988 Jul ; 192 (4) : 163-8

Tears, bitterness, despair as Gaza "bleeds rivers"

2009-01-06T08:46:00.000+08:00

Monday January 5, 2009
Tears, bitterness, despair as Gaza "bleeds rivers"
By Nidal Al-Mughrabi
GAZA (Reuters) - The three little children lying on the floor of the overcrowded morgue looked like sleeping dolls.
Palestinians wait in line to buy bread at a bakery in Gaza January 5, 2009. (REUTERS/Mohammed Salem)
"Get up, boy, get up" cried the weeping father, who lost a total of 13 close relatives when an Israeli shell hit his house east of Gaza City.
"Please get up. I am your dad and I need you," he implored helplessly.
The oldest was 4 years old. Their mother was killed too.
Mourning is also dangerous in Gaza.
Jaber Abdel-Dayem was watching over the body of a nephew, a paramedic killed in an Israeli airstrike in northern Gaza Strip.
"We were sitting in the mourning tent when suddenly they bombed us, we ran to rush the casualties to hospital but they bombed again," he said.
He did not really know if it was bombing or tank fire.
Medics said three people were killed and 17 wounded.
Abdel-Dayem stood beside their bodies.
"Those include my son, my nephew, my cousin. Oh God," he cried as tears started from his eyes.
His wife was there, either defiant or in shock.
"We are steadfast, we are steadfast", she kept saying.
Abdel-Dayem said all the Palestinian rockets fired by its Islamist Hamas rulers into neighbouring Israel were as nothing compared to one Israeli bomb.
"They (Israel's leaders) must be brought before international courts," he said. "May God punish the Arab rulers who are silently watching us bleed like rivers."
"MISERABLE LIFE"
Umm Ala Mrad, mother of 9, sat in her worn out clothes on an old mattress with one of her little ones in her arms.
"Maybe we're still alive death does not like us," she says.
She lives in Beach refugee camp, home to about 90,000 people in Gaza City. Her house is not far from Gaza Sea Port.
An Israeli warship lies offshore, firing shells and shots every now and then. Yesterday a missile from the ship killed a Palestinian militant riding a motorbike on the coast road.
Hundreds of Palestinians queued from early morning outside bakeries in Gaza City, their patience running out.
"I've been here for three hours and I will have to wait longer. Maybe a missile will bomb us so we can be rid of such a miserable life," said Abu Othman, a father of seven.
He said his sympathy was growing for the Hamas Islamists whose rocket fire into Israel triggered the offensive.
"I used to criticise the rockets. Maybe I still do but not like before. Now I want to see buses blown up in Israel," said Othman.
Gaza is without electricity much of the day and many people are without water because the wells need electric pumps.
Supermarkets said they have run out of basic stuff like rice and sugar because people are hoarding it.
The streets are almost deserted, strewn with blast debris.
About 80 truckloads of humanitarian aid got into Gaza on Monday via the Kerem Shalom-Rafah crossing in the extreme south.
Palestinian drivers clamoured at a little Israeli army office tucked in the shelter of the high concrete border wall, hurrying to clear their paperwork.
The truckloads of flour and oil rolled by in clouds of dust.
At Erez crossing in the north, 35 foreign passport-holders from Austria, Germany, Canada, Romania and the Philippines tried to get out of Gaza on Monday with Red Cross and Israeli help.
They got to within 500 metres of no-man's land and the shelter of Israel's reinforced concrete terminal, but a roadblock and a big crater barred the way.
The International Committee of the Red Cross decided it was too dangerous to proceed and took them back into Gaza.
A little while later, heavy tank and machinegun fire erupted just behind the fortified border post at Erez. An Israeli captain advised reporters to leave.
Copyright © 2008 Reuters

susah la abang sayang buat macam ni....

2009-01-03T20:00:00.004+08:00

mmmm.....entry ini didedikasikan kepada seorang insan yang teristimewa dalam hidup aku. pada tarikh 27/12/2008 yang lepas, aku menghantar utusan meminang ke tanjung malim. ini adalah merupakan satu titik permulaan aku untuk melangkah ke alam yang lebih nyata dan penuh bermakna. sedikit gementar tapi aku gagahkan semangat dan aku tekadkan hati ni untuk bersama dengan dia. namun aku tau yang segala yang aku lakukan itu cukup berbaloi dan sebenarnya tiada ayat yang boleh digantikan. aku rasa sangat bertuah sekali kerana yang disunting itu tak kurang seperti pergi menyunting juara ratu kebaya daerah batang padang, tanjung malim. hehehe.....banyak hati yang aku lukakan dan tatkala juga yang merintih akan kehilangan. aku bukan nak act, tapi aku tau yang aku memang baik..hehehe...susahlah macam ni sayang!!! pengharapan yang tinggi pada tahun baru ni adalah untuk membina rumah tangga yang dah lama aku dambakan. selamat bertunang buah hati pengarang jantung, Yantie Fadhlina bt Mohammed Shaharuddin!! wo ai ni!!!

yearoftwothousandnine!!!

2009-01-01T00:25:00.004+08:00

hello 2009!! and goodbye 2008....happy new year to all and i wish all the goods it can offer will come along the way for all of us. wuhaa!! i will be 28 this year on feb....man, time goes by very fast...i just hope more of the good things for this year as 2008 was really treated me very well. we all knew about the global economy, crisis, conflict and the globe itself are getting sick year by year and this is the time we really need to take action and let make it sure its gonna be a good one. now is no time for us to delay that. it's the time my fellow earth citizen! stop war! stop tyranny! stop brutality! stop oppression! stop corruption! stop massacre! stop genocide! start to make love not war!! and to all my fellow Malaysian, live, breath, sleep, eat unity. thing has change compare to our mums and dads time. now we are more likely can make the changes if we want it to be happen. speak with responsible, argumentative but no condemnation! let us be heard by our nation leader that's now, power is in our hand!!

reformasi!!!

2008-12-19T18:55:00.003+08:00

kali ni kita mesti bertindak. segala yang kita harapkan nampak macam akan lebur dan akan ada banyak lagi kehancuran hati, kesusahan rakyat selepas ni. dengan pengambilalihan Sime Darby keatas IJN, ini telah menampakkan bahawa kerajaan tidak peka terhadap keperluan, kesusahan rakyat dan lebih membuatkan rakyat menderita. adakah Sime Darby akan melakukan kerja kebajikan seperti menjelaskan bil rawatan rakyat-rakyat miskin? aku tak yakin dan aku sememangnya tak percaya. tapi, sehingga kini yang aku baca kat blog rakan-rakan, cuma bekas menteri kesihatan iaitu Chua Soi Lek sahaja yang menyatakan pandangan tidak bersetuju dengan pengambilalihan ini. setakat ini juga suara dari sebelah PR masih tidak kedengaran. apakah pengambilalihan ini direstu oleh PR? kita mesti bertindak!!! IJN untuk rakyat dan akan terus untuk rakyat!! reformasi!!!

politik oh politik.....

2008-12-17T03:06:00.002+08:00

sejak pilihanraya yang lepas, senario politik di Malaysia sekarang bertambah rancak dengan lebih ramai pihak yang berani bersuara yang selama ni cuma kat kedai kopi je, tapi sekarang sampai masuk TV. anwar ibrahim dengan cita-cita besar dia yang belum kesampaian hajat tu masih mencongak strategi perangnya dan bagi BN pulak, harga minyak turun lagi...rakyat suka la, aku pun sebenarnya...tapi sebenarnya ianya adalah satu diversion dari topik prima, ape dia? pilihanraya kecil, ISA, dan macam-macam lagi la..semua tu satu propaganda politik! tak kira la pihak mana pun, BN ke PR ke, masing-masing ada agenda masing-masing dan bagi aku politik tetap politik. aku tak akan berpihak mana-mana sebab perkara sama ada kemungkinan berulang. jadi aku pun ikut hati aku je. aku cukup kagum sekarang dengan kawan-kawan aku yang lama aku tak jumpa, mereka kini lebih mengambil langkah yang nyata untuk melawan anasir-anasir jahat BN dengan mengaktifkan diri dalam pelbagai badan bukan kerajaan untuk melawan dasar kerajaan yang semata-mata nak menguntungkan kaum kerabat sendiri je... rakyat makin lama makin tertindas. rakyat melayu tetap di takuk yang lama jugak. miskin!kalau dulu hanya tulis lagu, kini, keluar TV...auw!!! tapi aku tetap mengambil langkah yang pasif terhadap itu dan aku pun tidak mahu memikirkan sangat sebab nanti cepat tua...thehehe....kenapa? muka selalu berkerut memikirkan macam mana nak menggulingkan kerajaan sekarang...hehehe...gurau je. apa-apa pun salam kepada semua kawan-kawan aku. aku pun bukan tak mahu ambil tahu dengan isu semasa, cuma mengambil langkah memerhati sebelum bertindak. yang pasti, BN terutamanya UMNO sudah tidak releven kepada rakyat melayu dan negara. cheers!!!

fodder

2008-12-13T02:11:00.004+08:00

from the day you are born you are fed a story
go to your grave for your country's glory
fighting for your country fighting for your flag
fighting for your for the money and the rich of the land

expendable fodder your're played like a pawn
greed of your leader's will be your demise
fighting for your ego's and the status of your leader
not justice and freedom as you are bred to believe

come and learn what can in the army
skills of hate, power and control
come and learn what it's mean to be a man
and go die for your country's glory!!!!

knockin' heavenly

2008-11-10T00:31:00.007+08:00

success if you get up in the morning and go to bed at night and in between that you do what do you want to do.....

do you guys out there ever have any idea who is this person that things coming out from his mouth was all make sense...go figure..

insecurity of mind..

2008-11-09T23:51:00.003+08:00

its happen to be that way
without i wanted it to be
instead of going away
i just letting it be

so much thing to say
nothing coming through
leaving it lay
acting totally fool

hard tongue, feel numb
soaring deep pain
thought of going dumb
letting heart get slain

coming to common sense
wandering around to make sense
away from insanity
keeping up with morality

blowin' in the wind

2008-11-09T20:51:00.003+08:00

How many roads must a man walk down
Before you call him a man?
Yes, ’n’ how many seas must a white dove sail
Before she sleeps in the sand?
Yes, ’n’ how many times must the cannon balls fly
Before they’re forever banned?
The answer, my friend, is blowin’ in the wind,
The answer is blowin’ in the wind.

How many times must a man look up
Before he can see the sky?
Yes, ’n’ how many ears must one man have
Before he can hear people cry?
Yes, ’n’ how many deaths will it take till he knows
That too many people have died?
The answer, my friend, is blowin’ in the wind,
The answer is blowin’ in the wind.

How many years can a mountain exist
Before it’s washed to the sea?
Yes, ’n’ how many years can some people exist
Before they’re allowed to be free?
Yes, ’n’ how many times can a man turn his head,
Pretending he just doesn’t see?
The answer, my friend, is blowin’ in the wind,
The answer is blowin’ in the wind.- bob dylan

great lyric isn't it? what an inspirational and thoughtful. power struggle has always been our main subject and we never give up to make it ours. give power back to people!

Elvis who? Cash in...Johnny Cash everyone...

2008-11-08T01:58:00.004+08:00

suddenly my ear stuck with johnny cash's songs and telling you all it has been a very pleasure and such a beautiful voice he has. a legend himself and i think bigger than the "king". this is king of kings like the song of motorhead. he was an outlaw were doing time in san quentin. he even made song dedicated to the prison and it was really "story telling". and while i'm listening to the song, i bumped onto one of my old friend facebook and to the best of it, he got an old pics of me when i was little younger than now. looking back to that, i find out i might end up like johnny man. just that i was more conscious about getting caught. but all that i'd done in the past, i could really end up in the lock up man! i know, i know. what ever i had done in the past i would never regret it because why? that was the best part of growing up as a kid. this is my life and i live my life. love every each of it. get the very best out of it with the my very best.

maya karin...?

2008-10-19T00:08:00.005+08:00

aku dah lama tak update blog ni disebabkan malas yang melampau dan ketandusan idea. baca sana, sini, situ, masih juga tak dapat dijadikan sumber ilham. jadi aku pun ambil cuti panjang. rasa nak menulis tu sentiasa ada. entry yang aku tulis separuh, belambak banyaknya. nak tulis pasal politik, aku sekarang mengambil langkah tunggu dan lihat. tetapi tak bermaksud yang aku langsung tak ambil peduli pasal perkara tu. ada jugak ketidakpuasan hati ni, aku pendamkan dulu. rasa tak sesuai untuk aku "post"kan sekarang. nanti masanya tibalah tu. aku baru melawat blog "kawan maya". ceh, "kawan maya"....baik maya karin...heh... cik petung yang hardcore kentel tu. hehehe...jangan marah ya. aku suka sebab dia pandai mengarang. penuh kebebasan. penulisan baik, banyak isi dan padat. aku ucapkan tahniah dan teruskan menulis. masih tak mampu untuk mencetuskan ilham tapi sekadar untuk aku tuliskan entry ni sebagai permulaan untuk kembali menulis. kepada semua, aku ucapkan selamat sejahtera dan berbahagia. bye..

Minnal Aidin Wal Faizin....

2008-10-05T07:29:00.005+08:00

hello and Selamat Hari Raya Eidulfitri minnal aidin wal faizin to all Malaysian and happy holiday!! how are you guys doing out there? well, for quite sometime i didn't update my blog which is because i had some problem with my lapbook and busy catching up with my business lately, so thats the reason behind all. all the best wishes to all of you out there and let's celebrate with full of joy among family members and friends. and as for me, i would like to ask forgiveness if i was saying things wrongly, stating statement wrongly, harsh and many more, so minta ampun dan maaf ya. so many things to write but not now. will get back on that soon. see ya in next entry...bye...

need a little understanding....

2008-09-20T00:32:00.009+08:00

this entry is a further statement pertaining the arrest under ISA act. not to withdrawn my oppose of the act, i still condemn the act as it is just plainly injustice to civilian of this nation but this is a calling to all Malaysian to practice more understanding among others. we always speak out this understanding between all Malaysian and i believe that every problem, disagreement, dissatisfaction should be held a discussion upon any matters. Teresa Kok was detained under ISA act for the petition of which she mastermind to call for abolish use of speaker for religious purposes. we all known to the fact that all of Malaysian love peaceful living and freely practice ones faith without being worry or threaten. the motion of petition was truly spark some "flame" and as for me i sat down and thinking deep for a while. i'm not an extremist and i'm very sure about that because if i were, i would not writing this but instead lambaste her on the motion of the petition. in Islam, the calling of prayers or "azan" was being practice long ago since Prophet Muhammad SAW era. this is the way Islam call all the fellow Muslim to perform prayers. understanding of this practice must be hand out to non-Muslim in Malaysia and i believe it has been hand out long ago because why your friends and my friends are no difference. when i was in school, my Chinese friends asked me for his understanding of Islam. same goes to me, i was asking a thousand of question about their faith. and when we all aware of the practice, we started practice an understanding. i don't know if some Malaysian doesn't have a Muslim friends in their circle of friends at all. that would be very un-Malaysian and i believe Teresa Kok as well have bunch of Muslim friends in her circle of friends. and that she must be well aware of the practice and by just ignore the understanding is just ignorant. or maybe she abuse her rights irresponsibly for self-righteous politics. study on the matter should be at first hand before she moved on the motion. ignorant maybe has been blinded her from the fact. so let us all say that the power is in our hand if we all powered by knowledge. what say you?

Hardcore As Fuck!!!!!

2008-09-14T01:11:00.004+08:00

download from sharon stoned's myspace website.....cool ya.... starting to bark at the right tree now....

Injustice System Acceptance ( ISA )....

2008-09-13T00:53:00.006+08:00

day by day i try to figure it out what is going on in this racial prejudice divided country and find out it hard to bend the sentiment if we still accept the injustice system in the society that being practice largely by the government...how can we escalate freedom not control such that? i keep thinking why in this modern era, we still practice thick racial politics? why can we be one as Malaysian? it is hard to do so? the arrest of three person included 1 MP from pakatan rakyat yesterday, was truly a desperate measure by the government. arresting without stating rights of the captured was truly not right. sentencing without trial is tyranny. this is what we call injustice system acceptance or ISA! one has right to claim trial before proven guilty or not. ironic was one that cause the unrest is sleeping at home safe and sound because such punishment just to make a fake statement to the rakyat. when we will reach to the point that BN is IRRELEVANT to the rakyat!!!?? i still remember when i was in school, there was one incident that one of my school mate were targeted by outsider and we all stood firm behind him to back him because he simply one of us. he's Chinese. we did that because of togetherness, loyalty and unity. don't u think it is cool? wholeheartedly unite! we can't run from the fact that each race has differences in culture and faith but that doesn't strict us from understand each other. what was not clear, we sort it out. decline with diplomacy and rational. i believe that we somehow will reach an agreement. and i personally think why don't we learn one another about this culture that represent us who we are? i know not all Malay are racist same goes to other races as well. they have their own prejudice rat. but we can change it in the system for starting. lead the fair trade for the rakyat and rakyat will responds with solidarity!!! AE...

1, 2, 3, ye yo!!!

2008-09-08T00:49:00.003+08:00

i let it buried for past 10 years and now i dig it up back and collect piece by piece of the memories and i feel very much for it. but now i find it very strange to me. overall. everything, everybody.doesn't seem like last time and the exclusivity wasn't there anymore because about every week there will be a gig sometimes it up to 2 gigs per week..that really kill the scenario of it and division! first and foremost it shouldn't happening because the scene is very small. everybody knows everybody. so..why do we need division? i would want to ask everybody out there, why do we need division while we are fighting the same cause? now i'm making a come back to the scene. it's not about trying to do something significant but having fun with the kids. share my passion for the music and the fight. can't promise to stay off politics. i'm so much into for what i'm doing and that is to put it back to where it belong is my main target and goal. kids! lets together we fight.

Ramadhan Al-Mubarak, Permatang Pauh...

2008-09-01T21:17:00.005+08:00

Dengan Nama Allah S.W.T, Yang Maha Berkuasa, Maha Kaya, Maha Pengasih, Maha Penyayang, Maha Bijaksana, Maha Pemurah dan Maha Mengetahui. aku panjatkan doa kesyukuran dan sejahtera keatas Junjungan Besar Nabi Muhammad S.A.W. dan kepada kerabat baginda dan para sahabat, para rasul dan nabi Allah, para wali, para shahid, para ulama dan tahfiz, kepada kedua ibu dan bapa ku, ahli keluarga ku, saudara-mara ku, guru-guru ku, teman ku, sahabat ku, rakan ku, kenalan ku, mereka di sekeliling ku, dan kepada semua umat Islam yang masih hidup dan yang telah meninggal dunia dan kepada seluruh rakyat Malaysia tak kira bangsa, agama, kepercayaan dan keturunan. semoga bulan Ramadhan yang mulia ini memberi kita erti kehidupan yang jujur, telus, aman, adil saksama, amanah. kemenangan DSAI di Permatang Pauh memberi mesej jelas rakyat Permatang Pauh indirectly mewakili rakyat Malaysia kepada kerajaan BN yang kerajaan yang korupsi, tidak cekap, jahil, adalah kerajaan yang ditentang dan politik perkauman tidak lagi releven pada era sekarang. kepentingan rakyat yang sentiasa di pandang ringan dan subsidi yang cuma meringankan beban golongan yang berada menunjukkan kerajaan tidak peka dan sentiasa memperkotak-katikkan minda rakyat. sesungguhnya rakyat telah lama sedar akan ketidaktelusan dan ketikacekapan kerajaan dalam menguruskan dan membangunkan negara dan lebih mementingkan saku sendiri. ini bukan satu fitnah dan ini adalah apa yang berlaku selama ini. masyarakat melayu di cemarkan pemikiran kolot dan sentiasa dibunuh idea-idea yang bernas bagi menutupkan segala "lubang-lubang kejahatan" dan meraka yang berupaya untuk menyumbang, ditindas dan dinafikan kerana takut akan ancaman masa hadapan. percayalah yang keadilan akan prevail dan semua kejahatan akan terdedah kepada mata rakyat.

my ship....

2008-08-16T10:43:00.005+08:00

hi guys....wonder what and why with this collection? don't get me wrong ya...i'm not showing to all of you out there about how we can get our sleep during work. that wasn't the intention. most of us here at the club has been working long hour everyday from dust till dawn. we are very dedicated to our job and career and very passionate with what are we doing. so the sacrifice could get us until this point. not just that, some of us are really passionate in sports too, i.e. running a marathon. so our free time is training our ass off-lah!. well this is what we love to do most in our life not to whine bout it. this entry i dedicate to all of my colleague that has been a very wonderful, supportive, cheerful, fun and many of good things. many of us come and go. to my old, new team, cheers mates!!!!

Crime scene investigation

2008-08-13T20:24:00.006+08:00

victim : male, age mid 20's

race : unknown but believed to be Caucasian

suspect : female, age mid 20's

race : unknown but believed to be Caucasian

modus operand: self-pleasure

status : case solves

escalate freedom not control!!!!

2008-08-10T02:34:00.001+08:00

HuHaAa!!! Sunway Lagoon!!!....

2008-08-05T11:12:00.001+08:00

HuHAaAa!!! Sunway Lagoon!!! pt 1...

2008-08-05T11:06:00.003+08:00

this is the last moment with shah and probably with steven as well. wishes and prayers for both of you guys may goods come along the way and success in the future....cheers!!!

slavery my ass!!!

2008-07-21T16:57:00.003+08:00

Slavery (also called thralldom) is a social-economic system under which certain persons — known as slaves — are deprived of personal freedom and compelled to work.
Slaves are held against their will from the time of their capture, purchase, or birth, and are deprived of the right to leave, to refuse to work, or to receive compensation (such as wages) in return for their labor. As such, slavery is one form of unfree labor.
In its narrowest sense, the word slave refers to people who are treated as the property of another person, household, company, corporation or government. This is referred to as chattel slavery

i dont think this is what happenning to cristiano ronaldo. by the way, i would agree selling him to real madrid. the money could be use to buy another players like what sir alex did last season.

where is the love?

2008-07-18T08:30:00.014+08:00

Paying big for a little love
A Writer's LifeBy DINA ZAMAN

Ever heard of women paying for sex in Malaysia? Well, they're around and pay good bucks for selected studs.
When an acquaintance told me that she engaged in the services of male escorts, the confession knocked me back for six.
To say I was shocked would be an understatement.
For a good while, I was struck dumb. I have many people and friends confessing all sorts of sordid secrets to me, but this took the cake. This had to be the winner of them all.
And allow me to add this: this woman is successful, is of mixed-race parentage and has many men asking her out. She does not need to pay for company or sex. She however chose a different route.
So. Was this the height of the feminist movement then, the emancipation and empowerment of a woman’s sexual life? Now that women have broken corporate class ceilings and can have it all, getting in on the game like how men have done for thousands of years was a sign of gender triumph. Or was it, really?
It started because she was curious, and then the practicality of such an arrangement won her over. It was business, and that was how she liked it.
She called the shots – it was easy to be a female punter, because the opportunities were right in her face, and they were subtler. None of the drive-by, walking into a brothel and picking up a sex worker. For a woman with means, it can be anywhere: a café, nightclub, even at the theatre. Shopping at high-end retail outlets is another source too.
It was a rather informative conversation my friend and I had that night. Some of the things I gleaned from her were:
> She was in control. She interviewed them personally, checked them up and down and made sure the size of the package was to her liking;
> Race played a part in safer sex – the Malay gigolos hated wearing condoms but Chinese “rent-boys” practised safe sex. She had never come across Indian male sex workers, she said. There was a white tourist though, who wanted to make a few extra bucks for his travels;
> The Chinese men she had had liaisons with were professionals who wanted a pleasurable side income. The rest? They weren’t thinking of a future; and
> The men were so sweet and very nice. (Urm, at RM200 per hour, anyone can be sincere.)
This was true feminism, she claimed, and told me to stop gaping like a goldfish, for as a writer who has written on sensitive matters, I was expected not to judge.
After all, what was she doing wrong? The old, saggy socialites and datins dancing their sad lonely nights away in nightclubs keep younger men. Those boys knew what they were getting into.
What about women our age, who marry rich men, solely for their money? That’s legalised prostitution, she said. I, she pointed her finger at me, was a romantic fool.
Also, what choices does a single woman in her late thirties have? Married men? Not kosher. Polygamy? It’s an insult to women.
Lastly, she told me, her boys weren’t like my Chow Kit sex workers. Thank you very much.
As an employee of a public health and human rights NGO, this was a bit hard to swallow. I may be new to the Malaysian HIV/AIDS scenario, working with the poor and marginalised community, but I felt this trivialised and demeaned the sex trade, which, for the matter, is a violent industry.
It violates the rights of women, children and yes, men too (to me feminism is human rights, and this covers all genders and ages).
Gender theories on sex work aside, how does this impact on a woman’s well being? Her sexual health?
The feminisation of HIV in this country is a worrying situation. UNAIDS reported in its 2006 report on the global AIDS epidemic, in South-East Asia alone, women represented 29% of adults living with HIV. The infections are heterosexually-transmitted HIV cases.
A large number of them are housewives. The Malaysian Health Ministry June 2007 report stated that 2.4 women were infected with HIV each day.
Current studies also show that young women are several times more likely than young men to contract the disease through heterosexual contact. Now the collected data shows that female people living with HIV (PLHIV) are housewives, sex workers and intravenous drug users (IDUS).
As a colleague, Dr Karina Razali pointed out, we have made a gross mistake of inferring “disempowered women” as poor innocent victims of HIV, while the marginalised groups are treated as the “cause” of it all.
We have not taken into account, and must consider women who take their sexual lives in their hands, and are open to health risks too.
Female sex tourism is on the rise, and as more and more women take charge of their intimate lives, these behaviours must be accounted for when we talk about health and social issues.
It’s all well and good to tut-tut behind closed doors and in smart restaurants, but we need to realise and discuss that the sexual landscape in Malaysia, yes, Muslim Malaysia, is changing very fast.
Our population is smaller, the psychological make-up of our demographic is conservative and really, are we equipped for a sexual revolution? We can’t even run our country properly!
Perhaps I am conservative and not keeping with modern, liberated times. But I do not believe that owning our bodies, and our intimate lives mean participating in the sex trade.
It does not matter if a woman is in control; I have spoken to sex workers in my line of work and in this industry, at whatever level – from the thousand ringgit Eastern European call girl to the young boy cruising in food courts at shopping malls - women, and men, are vilified and treated violently.
Perhaps, as my friend said, my sex workers are worlds apart from her rent-boys, but prostitution is human slavery. This is about the trafficking of lives and bodies, in exchange for money under the illusion of love and relief.
The writer wants to balik kampung and bury herself in sand.

taken from the star online

comment: this is not new to me as i got an offer similar to this before. yep, i'm not making up story. i was offered rm 200 ringgit for an hour. well it's a modern, competitive, vigorous world and nothing wrong about it actually because everybody has their own reason. ones have to know by him or herself whats good and bad. it just calling of human nature. well better than killing another life. makes love not war!

kl calling...

2008-07-18T07:53:00.003+08:00

Thursday, July 17, 2008

What a reason to give for arrest

Posted by: ak2lac

What can I say? The CID Chief has explained his reason for arresting Anwar, but I can't help myself but lament, what a silly reason that was.

The arrest was made based on an ASSUMPTION that Anwar would not adhere to the deadline given. Would it not have made SENSE if the arrest was made after 2pm, and only if Anwar failed to meet the deadline?

This is way too much. To me, this is akin to a teacher spanking students on Tuesday, for the fear of students not submitting assignments on Wednesday, which is the deadline for submission. ??? Would anyone tolerate such nonsense?

Sigh...

taken from the star online.

comment: aku tak terkejut dengan perlakuan dan pendekatan PDRM kerana sungguh jelas yang sistem undang-undang di malaysia ni memang melindungi kepentingan sesetengah pihak dan ini cukup membuktikan yang rakyat harus berjuang dengan seluruh kekuatan untuk mendaulatkan keadilan. lets strive for justice, escalate freedom not control.

minyak ke nyanyok?

2008-07-15T13:02:00.009+08:00

sekarang ni semacam serba tak kena dengan segala-gala. nak aku luahkan satu-satu rasanya macam tak cukup skrip nak tulis tapi hati ni resah menjelang hari yang akan mencatatkan sejarah yang tersendiri dalam hidup aku. mungkin aku cuma panik dengan fikirkan yang bukan-bukan dan macam-macam, mungkin juga. yang pastinya ini adalah misi membina hidup yang baru dan akan menempuh cabaran yang sebenar kelak. aku teruja. tentu sekali teruja sambil mengira wang dalam saku yang tak seberapa tapi aku usahakan walaupun kena berkorban banyak keinginan. aku kira kalau tak sekarang akan datang nanti. jadi apalah nak ditolak kalau rezeki didepan mata. aku bersyukur kepada yang Maha Esa. aku sedar yang aku lalai dalam menjalankan ibadat aku namun aku sentiasa menagong akan kebesaranNya. aku bukan nak berkhutbah kat sini. aku cuma nak menyedarkan diri sendiri sambil kamu semua diluar sana juga sedar tentang perkara tersebut. sekejap tadi, aku ada terlihat kat tv mengenai debat Anwar dengan Shabery. tentu sekali macam langit dan bumi kalau nak dibandingkan gaya pemikiran dua individu, satu, seorang ikon keadilan dan kebangkitan rakyat, yang satu lagi, kail panjang sejengkal, lautan dalam hendak diharungi. bukan aku nak mengadili. dari pendapat aku. kalau tak setuju, silalah sangkal. aku sentiasa menerima semua kritikan sebab aku yakin akan apa yang aku fikirkan dalam minda ini. bukan tiada ruang langsung untuk idea lain, tapi aku rasa, sekarang ni adalah masa yang sesuai untuk kita luruskan apa yang terbengkok. naik malu pun ada, kelakar dan aku rasa jika itulah kredibiliti untuk menjadi menteri, sungguh ramai di luar sana yang layak menjadi menteri. marilah kita semua bersama menjadikan amalan adil, jujur, amanah, dan bertanggungjawab menjadi asas kehidupan kita.

office politic suck!!

2008-07-13T14:08:00.004+08:00

hari ni 13th July, im still no where. do you understand me? nope? im nowhere with my monthly goals. im talking about work. ya,ya, i know...work again..aku ada teori tentang progress aku dengan perkembangan kerja aku sekarang. and it's involving office politics!! everywhere you go, u will never run from it. it's everywhere!! i know there's a good leads and the bad leads..well i know right now i've been getting the bad leads. feel suck and betrayed!! everybody should be treated fairly. don't you think so? if this continuously happen, i think i might be run out of business. some measure should have been taken so it will not last for so long and it will stop immediately!! the party involved in this matter should be warn!!

ole espana!!

2008-06-30T14:49:00.004+08:00

hey, spain won the euro. well i'm not surprise as they played a very fascinating, entertaining football. truly german was being outclass by them and they used the complacency of germany and punish them dearly. well end of the story, micheal ballack still a sore loser. 6 final but still hasn't won anything. what a feeling! i know how exactly does it feel and being one of the finest footballer in the world, it's kind of humiliation and shameful. probably he not going to read this entry but for the chelsea die hard fan out there, guys, u better know that he's good for nothing. only of his imposing feature on the pitch does count but with out result, still a sore loser. well, ronaldo is not going anywhere even thought i expected him off because he will lure a huge sum of money. with his price tag, he will bring a bunch of talent to the team. well, he's staying anyway. but i'm really admired andres ineasta. he moved around and control the ball very well as well with reading the game like back of his hand. this kind of talent is rare and very much an honour to watch them play. all sum up about the euro, well very much of new talent and delighted to watch. loads of tactical and play safe football. few entertaining for example, spain. truly beautiful. for dutch team, what a shame after a very strong start of the tourney. well, that football. the ball is round.

huha.....yeha!!!

2008-06-09T14:09:00.007+08:00

at last...we had our HUHAAA!!!!!! long awaited but very cool of all. we went for "Pain"tball!!!! it was cool and was fun...check out the pics..but unfortunately there are no pics of us in action but all bruised!!!

king of europe!!!

2008-05-23T09:36:00.010+08:00

pinnacle of the competition and united lads has done it well. despite of hard fought from the blues, united has made it a successful season of 2007/08. and to be crowned king of europe for the third time is no more could ask from the lads. they have done it well and i was the best performance through out the season and this will stamp a mark on it of one of the powerhouse in europe and it is the red devils!! glory, glory, glory man united!!

better than ezra....

2008-05-23T09:14:00.008+08:00

me at doing 15km and guess how does it feel actually? it feels fun after all!! i love my life now better!!

scenario after the run, everybody was chilling out and they even got a cendol store for all the runners freshened up after that. cool ha?

last sunday morning has been held an event of New Balance 15km run. an annual event organized by pacesetter club malaysia and it has been in the calender as far as i know all this while..hehehe..for an amateur runner like me this event will help me to feel the atmosphere when i was in school competing in a sports day. in other words, i miss school!! quite though with the course a lot of hills. but for sure most safety route i ran so far. well organize as well. i love it and it was fun and have a lots of hot chicks. hot chicks can run!! man, it was cool...

glory,glory,glory

2008-05-16T22:18:00.005+08:00

hey...long anticipation of champ's league finale between both english side and for sure its a derby of current most in form clubs in europe. but my heart strongly says united gonna be crowned the championship. although chelsea has beaten united in their last game, but it meant nothing for the penalty had been played and obviously it killed the game. i thought that was a great escaped from chelsea. but nevertheless, we won the domestic title. kinda boost of morale to face chelsea in the final. fantastic run on the league. perhaps it will keep running the luck until the end of the session. my expectation is high as high as sky. to win it this time is the right moment and to show that united is one of the powerhouse in europe will benefit the club as their targeted player wouldn't be hesitate to come and play with the mighty red. so let chelsea know the championship isn't build on pound sterling. hah! a big statement there and for sure will make some peeps ill-hearted. hahaha!!! the war has just begun and i will supporting until the end. GLORY,GLORY,GLORY MANCHESTER UNITED!!

salam dari ampang point....

2008-05-11T21:38:00.000+08:00

kebangkitan yang dijangka dan dinantikan. panas semua punggung-punggung mereka lari lintang pukang dan ada yang terus sembunyikan diri dalam rumah. kelakarkan? memanglah. marah pun ada, kecewa lagilah. tapi inilah yang di panggil kurap masyarakat. menipu rakyat, menyeleweng, jenayah terancang, korupsi, birokrasi, dan macam-macam lagi. berselindug di sebalik songkok dan cuba sedaya-upaya menegakkan benang yang basah. malaon-malaon ni sudah tidak releven pada rakyat dan jelas semata-mata untuk menjaga perut yang buncit tu. segala duit didepan mata disebat rasa tak bersalah. sekarang, tuduh menuduh sesama sendiri. malu kalau dilihat seperti sarkis yang belum jinak. rakyat marah dan kecewa kerana seperti dipilih untuk berkhidmat tapi diisikan dulu saku-saku tu. tak cukup dengan suami, isteri pun terlibat sama. jutaan ringgit untuk "kebajikan perbelanjaan ke paris", "lawatan sambil belajar ke rome"..ish manalah tuhan tak murka? semuanya sebab sifat tamak yang tidak lagi dapat ditangani. sekarang, muka pun pucat menunggu berita seterusnya. tapi ada juga keraguan proses penyiasatan kerana yang menyiasat tu juga ambil "duit kopi"...apa, kopi kat rumah tak cukup ke? akibatnya akan alamilah cetusan kemarahan rakyat. dikritik, diherdik balik. perjuangan yang tidak releven kerana menyusahkan rakyat terutamanya bangsa sendiri. akibatnya segala pintu untuk menonjolkan diri di arena yang lebih kompetitif, disekat kerana bangsa lain marah dengan keistimewaan yang diberi tapi mereka tak tahupun yang diberi pun hanyalah untuk kaum kerabat sahaja. yang lain kena buat dan cari sendiri. rugi tak? sekarang ternyata yang proses demokrasi akan menjamin semula dan undang-undang yang menjaga kepentingan pihak-pihak ini membuatkan si bapa, meringkuk didalam penjara hanya kerana menuntut hak sama rata sebagai rakyat dan manusia biasa dihapuskan. kemunculan hero-hero bangsa yang memperjuangkan keadilan sangatlah dinantikan. berani kerana benar, takut kerana nanti bini tahu dan kenalah bunuh juga. lebih hina lagi bila menolak agama untuk kepentingan bangsa!! agama ditolak kerana tidak releven dengan pemerintahan sekarang dan di wujudkan pula mazhab baru. semuanya untuk kepentingan politik semata-mata. agar undi tak turun dan pengundi dari agama terpengaruh. melatah jangan cakaplah. sikit sahaja komen atau kenyataan dibuat, penuhlah jalan-jalan raya sambil membawa sepanduk macam-macam katanya. dari dulu pun perkara tu tak pernah berubah. sejak pemerintahan yang dulu pun bangsa sendiri ditindas lebih malang lagi dengan bangsa sendiri pula tu. gimik tak habis-habis! nilai budaya diperalat untuk meraih populariti tapi sekarang, minta maaf sampai tak cukup orang nak bersalam dah. tak malu!! tempoh "honeymoon" dah tamat dan sekarang masanya untuk menempuh realiti yang penuh dengan segala drama baik dari orang sendiri mahu pun orang sekeliling. muhasabah diri dan tengok dengan mata hati.

from desa pandan to melaka...

2008-04-23T18:37:00.000+08:00

melaka, negeri yang menceritakan hampir semua sejarah yang ada di malaysia. perjalanan tak jauh dari k.l . cuma ambil masa sejam lebih. kat sana, aku rasa macam mengimbau semula sejarah lampau. aku mula sedari yang sejarah mengajar kita untuk maju di masa hadapan. jadi pergilah ke melaka untuk mengenal asal-usul diri.

kena rip-off dengan pakcik bawa beca ni la....ambil gambar dia charge sekali..

saint paul church

masjid tertua di melaka dan dibina oleh 3 kaum utama di malaysia.

fountain of youth

guard of honour

what a wonderful visit. that words was enough for me described it to show an appreciation to bandar hilir, melaka. a majestic historical site with a full of colour of Malaysia. truly Malaysia. i am so proud of national history and it was before my most favourite subject in school. it was very much surprise factor even we thought we knew about our beloved country. many more yet to discover and more to come. for example, when melaka state government decided to built a tower in the town, they found out there was still a site never been explored they thought they would. it was a wall of fort of dutch amazingly hidden under the road and never before discovered. i thought still has plenty to find out. i am very delighted to be there. melaka, pride of nation. until we meet again. bye for now.

the unconvinient truth...

2008-04-17T13:58:00.000+08:00

hello and good day to my fellow Malaysian. as today, i would like to share with all of you my thoughts regarding current issues that has been a hot topic to discuss now. i'm so positive about what i'm going to say because it has all the positive constructive critic in its and it maybe useful for the other party to consider it later. i am reluctantly stating of disagreement about the recent amounting issues in our beloved country. everything, anything that can be use to be a "political substance" would be the headline in the news. i've read in the newspaper yesterday about a statement made by the newly-appointed menteri penerangan regarding freedom of blogger. i think all of us knows our rights that can be practiced for all Malaysians and i truly understood the stand on the matter. ones have a right to say anything to express their displeasure in a very well taken and constructive manner as we all can get sensitive on several matter here in Malaysia. so that if this method applied i think it shouldn't make such unnecessary ill-hearted statement. so every point of view, will be taken positively rather than a rude shock. freedom of voice in people should not be taken away as Malaysians are all aware of what is up now and from this platform all the important information is received. look on what had happened in the last general election. anger within was unbearable to hold as what was build before has almost vanished away. i look in a more positive outcome and this is the time all Malaysians realized that power is still in people's hand. we shouldn't be taken lightly. act of pointing fingers to each other is not the way and this is the time all Malaysians must work together to build the nation. Malaysians as well must be taken care fairly and give all Malaysians a fair trade in anything. empowering trust, honesty, transparency and equality is the up most welcomed. so let work together and stop lambasting.

simon says.....

2008-04-16T12:15:00.000+08:00

today is 16th of April. its mix emotion as i thought it was going to be that way actually. i know about it and actually get ready of its coming. somehow, i still can feel what is coming even not happen in front of my eyes. i could feel. that makes it more caution. now i think everyday, everyone of us will get hurt. because, that makes us know how's life is. but that do not deter me finding my happiness. i know somewhere, somehow, life is just beautiful when we put an effort on it and patience will pay up by end of the day. pray a lot this day for living with her.

oi!

2008-04-03T01:40:00.000+08:00

hey semua....apa khabar! lama juga aku tak live ya. sibuk la. aku sebenarnya tengah gemuk ni. hahaha...aku out of shape!! aku sebenarnya sengaja je jadi macam ni sebab aku nak develop balik badan ni. aku tengah on going program ni. so kalau korang jumpa aku kat luar sana, jangan la terkejut ya. aku tau yang blog aku ni agak bosan dan most of the time aku sibuk jadi time spending for this has been frozen as i have to bulk up my activity for my business. so im not in a very pleasent time to do such thing. so hope u guys are still with me and i know someone is always loyal to me for this long and im very much delighted to know that she is keeping me in her mind. entry ni pun actually untuk updating all of you about me. i'll try to make time for this. but hope that u guys out there be patience with me. mungkin konsep blog ini akan berubah ke picture blog. maybe that will make my blog stand out kalau dibandingkan dengan sekarang ni la. aku akan cuba juga mengubah suai apa yang patut. so, aku akan sambung niat murni aku ni dan do give me a comment ya. love.

Blood Pressure and Exercise

2008-02-25T12:42:00.000+08:00

Question:
Has anyone ever heard of a mechanism that would lower blood pressure immediately after vigorous exercise? Could plaque in blood vessels be removed during vigorous exercise, causing a lower blood pressure at the end? Or might exhaustion be responsible for a relaxation not normally achieved? Simply put, what factors play a role determining blood pressure and are there ways to lower it?
Answer:
(You better hope that an exercise session does not remove plaque in blood vessels. Recent research shows that plaques traveling through the blood vessels may cause heart attacks.)
Blood pressure readings as high as 240/120 during aerobic exercise and 350/150 during strenuous weight training are not unusual. Also, systolic pressure (the top number) should rise linearly as exercise intensity increases. So you should expect blood pressure to drop after exercise.
However, an unexpected or unreasonable drop in BP may indicate a major medical condition. If that's the case, you should ask your client to see a physician.
Blood pressure is the product of cardiac output and peripheral vascular resistance. From a physiological point of view, age, weight, gender, ethnicity and family history all affect blood pressure.
Mechanically speaking, the pumping of the heart creates a force as the blood pushes against the walls of the arteries and arterioles. (Pressure is force divided by a unit of area.)
The arteries and arterioles create resistance to the blood flow from the heart. As arterioles contract, resistance to blood flow increases, thus blood pressure increases. The opposite happens as arterioles expand.
Immediately after exercising, a drop in blood pressure is natural and expected. Muscle contractions help pump blood back to the heart. Once you stop exercising and these contractions dissipate, the heart responds by decreasing cardiac output, and blood pressure drops.
An acute bout of exercise also dilates the blood vessels. This means less resistance to blood flow and a decrease in blood pressure.
Studies have shown that moderate aerobic exercise (like walking) may be more effective in lowering resting blood pressure than more intense exercise. Specifically, a recent National Institutes of Health (NIH) study showed that aerobic exercise can reduce systolic blood pressure by 11 mmHg and diastolic BP by 9 mmHg.
According to research in Exercise Physiology, the precise mechanism for the exercise-lowering effect of blood pressure is not known, although it may occur because of a reduction of the catecholamines with training.

selamat petang cikgu...

2008-02-01T21:34:00.000+08:00

febuari dah kunjung tiba. wah, wah bahasa tu...cepat betul aku rasa masa berlalu. sangat terasa..aku goyang sebenarnya. sebab aku dah rangkakan plan 2008. aku cuma takut masa tak cukup je. masa? itu satu hal. yang paling mustahak aku rasa sumber kewangan. aku sekarang betul-betul buat sedaya upaya aku untuk melaksanakan semua agenda aku untuk tahun ini. aku rasa takde sebab untuk aku melengahkan lagi semua perancangan sebab kalau tak....mati la aku. aku rasa takde yang mustahil untuk aku laksanakan. by hook by crook, aku akan cari jalan untuk itu. kerja. semakin hari semakin meningkat...so far. aku dapat rasakan "time" aku tengah sampai untuk aku deliver kerja aku dengan lebih cemerlang. wah3.....hehehe...aku juga berharap aku tak lalai macam tahun lepas. aku dah tak sanggup lagi merana...cukup2...jadinya, kerja kuat la bang. dengan kerjaya macam aku ni, aku rasa yang boleh menjamin aku adalah diri sendiri je. bukan orang lain. aku kerja, aku makan. tak kerja, lepas makan....hahaha. bulan 3 ni pulak aku masuk half marathon. preparation untuk penang bridge marathon bulan 6 nanti. sebenarnya kalau ikutkan hati ni, semua aku nak masuk. tahun ni banyak sangat pertandingan yang akan berlangsung jadi aku harap aku dapat participate sebahagian pertandingan tu. aku tau memang tak menang punya tapi aku nak rasa keseronokan dan kepuasan diri sendiri. bukan melancap ok...aku berhenti kat sini dulu dan akan sambung lagi nanti..ciao...

maramkerapu....

2008-01-11T17:02:00.000+08:00

hello semua!! ya...terkejut? jangan la sebab aku rasa tak ada sebab korang semua nak terkejut sebab ini adalah perubahan yang aku bawa untuk tahun 2008. aku akan post entry pada tahun ini dengan bahasa melayu. aku nak memperkasakan bahasa melayu aku je sebab aku rasa aku makin hilang "rasa" berbahasa melayu. hari ini adalah hari yang ke 11 dalam bulan januari 2008 dan aku sangat berasa semangat kerana aku....hehehe....aku telah menemui "roh" aku kembali. aku akan bercerita tentang itu kemudian, yang paling penting adalah kehidupan pada tahun ini akan berbeza dan perbezaan ini adalah untuk kebaikan atau mungkin keburukan. untuk tahun 2008 ini aku akan meluaskan skop penulisan aku dan aku akan cuba untuk lebih kreatif dalam sampaikan bahan-bahan untuk korang semua. so aku rasa akan lebih ramai la pembaca blog ni dan akan lebih la komen yang aku dapat. kalau ikutkan hati memang aku nak sambung tapi aku tengah kerja la. so aku akan kembali menceritakan tentang "roh" aku tadi. so long guys! until then...

twothousandandeightrockhellyeah!!!!!

2008-01-06T21:19:00.000+08:00

hello everybody!! welcome to my blog in 2008. before that i think it is not too late to wish all of you a happy new year 2008 and may this year bring us a lot of its great!! well, we just entered a new year ya guys?! time past us without let us catch up with our breath. new year, mean new challenge. personally i think this year gonna be a good year for anything and everything. well last year was a great year as well but this year gonna bring a lot of its excitement through the year as i can feel this is the year that anything that i have planned before going to settle. i'm so excited coming to that as 'm always looking forward towards that. i would love to look back to 2007 because there was a lot of thing happened but hey, look forward and move forward is much strongly recommended. am i right? i'm going to write a lot of exciting, interesting stuff, as much as share with all of you out there of good tips. look forward for that guys!!! well that for now. i wish all of you guys, have a BLAST year!!!! hell yeah!!!

good bye 2007..hola 2008

2007-12-04T17:42:00.000+08:00

the year has almost come to the end. i wouldn't say it too soon for me to say that because it's already on december. just another how many days left for 2007. so let get back through the year. what had and have i achieved this year. this year has been a good, bad, sad, happy, up and down for me. what had i achieved this year is a new career, new life, new hope, new challenge, new friends and etc. and one more thing, what an achievement for me as well as i started doing something that i wouldn't imagine doing before such as "this". hahaha!!! i never thought that i would write something and people could read whatever i'm having in my mind. just imagine this, before i hardly could write a simple wish on a birthday card but now, i'm writing for people and share my story. tremendously amazing!! and one more amazing thing that i achieved to do is reading a book!! not just a book but its a novel!! hahaha!! ok, let get started.... early on january, i got engaged to Siti Erlyna Umran. it was on the 6th of january this year. that was a new hope for me. everything went as i planned and i could say i was quiet lucky for that. an experience to become her beau for last 8 months. she was great and i couldn't say more because she always been great to me. what had happened between me and her is going to be our history and i pray for her happiness. yeah we broke up!!. another great thing happened to me was this job. a job i couldn't imagine getting it. i'm living my dream. well part of my dream. could be better but i choose to stay. plus the great team! old and new. all make an impact towards me. getting know a lot of new people and chance of becoming part of their life. working in this line has been a very great to me as everyday i will happen to meet new people that came from every part of life and that makes me feel like i'm part of the whole thing. a lot of new faces also came to my life as i realized, not everything that we heard was true and all those stereotype sucks!! i just wish the best to come next year as i'm looking forward for the new challenges. as for my romantic life, i could say that how about i just take thing in steady pace and just let the time tell me what should i do next. until then...happy new year 2008!!

new leaf....

2007-11-11T19:56:00.001+08:00

hey all....how are you guys doing? how's the weekend? my weekend? mmmm...i miss my lovely girlfriend because she has been away for 4 days.she went back to her hometown. damn! i miss her dearly. argh!! she just a lovely girl. when i think about it, i found out that i'm quite lucky because i've been getting a lovely person to be beside me all along. last time there was my lovely ex-fiancee. Siti Erlyna Umran @ Lyna @ Cat. she was great. very lovely, supportive, caring etc. now the girl that i met also very lovely and i know that if this time i let it slip away, i just let myself turn to be gay. no offence to the gays out there. i'm pro. hahaha! i know, i know. it just over with Lyna and started all over again with other girl. guys, this is God's work. written its going to be happen like this. what i had with Lyna was very meaningful and if it not the years that we been through together, i bet we must be married by now. but didn't work as planned. so, i thought the best thing for both of us is to go on separate way. i know it might sound little bit bold but face the world. we live in real live. the best that i could give her are my support and prayers. talk about my girlfriend, i just noticed that when you are in love, you just started all over again. even thought it quite tiring but hey, do you want it to make it happen? i want it. so, work it out man!! this is the 1st time i think i'm revealing this to the public if i'm not mistaken. yeah, i'm committed myself to Yantie Fadhlina. she is the rose in my garden right now. simply irresistible. that the best words to describe her. this will be the beginning of another chapter in my life. i pray to the Lord above, let it be my last and forever.

God, please hear me....

2007-11-09T18:19:00.000+08:00

this time i want to tell you out there that i'm in deep shit of trouble. i know that i shouldn't whine about it but i just can't take it anymore. i'm so fucked up as my sessions in the bank are reducing and my sales are still at nowhere. man, what should i do now? am i not working as hard as i used to? am i was playing around all this while? am i not doing anything to move forward towards the victory? i just don't know what i should do now? i know that if AD knows about it, he will be very piss off with me. still has time for this while nothing on the board!!! fuck man!! i'm just sick of it all!!! GOD, please help me deal with this!! give me strength to strive myself towards the goals and please do not make me go broke!!!

i feel shitty...

2007-10-27T12:34:00.000+08:00

time has run so fast and sometime i think of could not coop with it. many of the thing i'd seen has vanish as time goes by as well as something i used to have last time. for example, my life. my life was very plain and dull in sense of i have everything. it doesn't mean it wasn't interesting. it was but i would rather say it was bored because there was no challenge on it. hehehe..for example my relationship......argh, man i am just annoyed with what i just had. a conversation with.....i just don't understand what does she think? i wish i could understand it more but nope. at this moment, i just annoyed, frustrated and upset. but she 's an adult. so i guess i don't need to think for her as she can think by herself. what good to her is best for her. i just hope that she knows what is she's doing. not in my position to talk anymore. now, i would focus all my strength and thought to other who would want to listen to me only. that's all i can do. shit, i feel shitty..

something about me....

2007-10-21T14:26:00.000+08:00

hello everybody....here again...there's something interesting i would love to share to all of you out there...really. i bet all of you can't wait to know what is it about am i right? as i'm writting this entry, tell you guys the truth, i really don't know what to write but i just feel that i need to write something. hahaha....gotcha! yesterday was a fabulous! why? i dont know why. there is no explanation of it. it was just simply incredible, wonderful. i don't want to talk about it more... as for today, i was planning spend the rest of the day by relaxing, rejuvenate myself. in other words, i'm going to make a house spa at home. hahaha!! hey, stop there! this is more interesting man! i just developed a new hobby....reading poems!! i found out it quite interesting as i learn a lot new words but some of it it really give me a headache. but hey, don't you think its cool? i think it is..some of it about life, society, relationship, love, dark, and many more. i don't know where does it come from... i mean the interest. but i think its not to bad. the idea was just for me to get to know the new words that sounds very intergalactic...haha..i think it started when get started to write in this blog. don't you guys think? 7 years back, i bought this one book called sophie's world by jostein gaarder. but that time it was just to impressed my girlfriend back then. i wasn't really read the book...hahaha! but now, i actually feel that i'm really in the situation of the story. doesn't it sound amazing? so...perhaps i just get started enjoying life now. so lets hope it going to last......

goodbye puasa...welcome raya

2007-10-10T15:29:00.000+08:00

hello guys....how is everybody? i'm here doing just fine, little bit good than bad a bit less than great. just fine. so here we meet again. i want to share something with you guys out there about raya. it is such an anticipated festival right? i guess so. for kids i think it is but for us, i mean for me i guess not that much awaited because why? i'm more enjoy the fasting month than the raya month. i don't know but for me puasa month is the best of all. when i look back from the starting of the month, i found out there was a lots of activity that i wanted to do most of the years. which i think everybody would agree with me, or not. ok lets discuss why? there is a lots of thing that would happen during this month. things like bump into someone that years you haven't meet before, an old friends call and wish you wishes, bump into exs, meeting long time friends, meet new friends, and many more. if i list it down i think it would be half of the page is full. but the best thing is getting to do something special once in a year with your loved one. breakfast together, pre-dawn meal together. for me, even thought its not that grand event but it just happen once a year. am i right? i do miss it when it over because the experience was just an extraordinary. the feeling of feasting with your loved one is so much different during the month. why? do not ask me that. for sure i cant give you an exact answer.

me...

2007-09-15T10:15:00.000+08:00

this week has been a bad one. why? everything i did was never enough! i'm running out time!! what went wrong? everything seems not as i planned. i'm so fucked up man. i really can't afford to have this situation at this moment. man i'm tense! at one point, i was thinking of quiting. but i can't because it won't help me to do better in life. it just an escapism. was it not enough of effort? was i fooling around? or the luck hasn't come yet? what should i do? now i'm starting to whine. which is i don't like to do most. but, what should i do now? is this a little set back? i hope. what am i worry the most is the life ahead. how should i face it? all this worries has been running in my mind since last week and this week getting worst. i do really can't afford to be like this. something is beyond my control. i'm suck this risk management? what is that? what am i talking about? this is what happened when i start to panic. i'm totally out of control. damn! but this is life. nothing seems to be in my way all the time. so stop whining you bloody sissy!! get back on the pace! do what i have to do! man you know that this is a little set back. just ignore the obstacles. this is work. i'm a grown up man!! full gear up. if it wasn't me to do this, then who else? i got nobody. i only have me. i'm not a quitter and that for sure!! come on me. im talking to me!! make it happen!!!! show to myself am i worth an applause. come on! stop this pointing out the fingers to others and point back to me!!! it's me!!!

tips to lose...

2007-09-13T07:16:00.000+08:00

hello all, Ramadhan is here. so for all my muslim friends, you guys know what you all should do right? fasting la. so here i would like to wish to all my muslim friends, "Selamat menyambut bulan Ramadhan and may Allah bless us with all the goodness of this month" and to all my non muslim friends, you guys should try fasting because why? you can lose up to 5 kg in a month!!! that's why!! and also to detox your body and as for girls, no water retention( if u know what i mean..hehe..) and plus if you guys wanted so much to quit smoking, this is the time to do so. its really simple, just from 7am to 7pm. do not consume any food, water, no smoking until 7pm. but make sure before 7am u eat something that can makes you energize for the rest of the day. so guys try. no harm...write more soon...

my heart says....

2007-09-03T20:18:00.000+08:00

my life isn't only about me. its about all. i mean my family, loved one, friends, colleague etc....sometimes i would think, why don't i just think about myself? i can and i did. but what happened then was everything went wrong. you see, it not just thinking about myself, i have to think about everybody as well. it is fun to do something like that but it's not fun when people around you start to complaining about it. i think it's not just about me all the while, its about everything and everyone of us. whatever that i do or what i'm going to do, i have to make sure it will not make others feel "hey that's not right!"...you know what i mean. i cant afford to lose something so precious in my life and at the same time i cant afford to not to do something that i wanted to do most before my time arrives. now everything seems to be cloudy. i sometime can't think straight man( i'm straight okay..hehe). it just went blur. i don't know how to judge the situation. this cant be happening. if not i will pay the high price for it. yesterday everything went wrong. i was acting like a jerk!!! i pity her for my stupidity. i don't know what was i thinking. am i too drunk to think rational? i don't think so....i was still can think. but what fuck i was thinking yesterday? was it because some other think that i having right now? perhaps yes. couldn't i handle it? i could. am i sure? hahaha..guys! all of you are now trapped into my mind game. hahaha....seriously i'm fucked up! this shouldn't be happening. my life isn't that complicated, its me who made it complicated. to whom i should go and find the solution? man i'm able to solve it by my own, it just that i'm too lazy to make it happen. people around the globe, i'm so confused!!!

L.O.V.E

2007-08-24T14:52:00.000+08:00

Hi I'm a new person in the house(in the sense that I've never written anything in the blog before). Haha this guy by the name of Wan is an extraordinary person. Do you wanna know why?I'll let u know next time. So stay tuned...

Guess it will be too long if I wanna wait till next time to write again. Working is never an easy job to be accomplished. I have a friend who is studying in UM and she constantly tell me that study is a very tough job to do. Yes I agreed but deep inside me there is nothing in the world that comes easy. Working in a giant company that has lots of competitors is nevertheless more stressful than ever. So many people vying among each other to show that they are the best in everything. Those who can't stand the pressure will opt to leave. But not for me.Life is never easy. My members told me about that. My favourite member Khai said life is actually a struggle. Wan,my colleagues and I are always struggling to provide the best to the members, the company and of course to ourselves. I admire the spirit fired out by Wan. Albeit being strained to the neck on improvising on well u know what I meant, he will still provide his best service to members. Giving up,white flag, surrender will never ever exist in his dictionary. Always supporting and encouraging he's really a good pal (not as loyal as a dog though, hehe). That is also why he is so funny. Whenever he fights with me and of course when he loses he will say that he did not lose but he fought with love and he is just giving me faces whereby he has been bruised by me all over. Haha luckily his Bentara Guru doesn't know bout it. Quite an egoistic man I will say. But whatever it is he is truly a great guy. Forever supportive.

angel on fire....

2007-07-24T14:34:00.001+08:00

this is a sad story to tell you guys...but i will do my best to deliver it to you guys out there.... so here we go....i'm really trap between situation that i thought i can be a peacekeeper....like the UN, but its appear the other way around. my intention here is to become a friend for both of them, but end up just one of them sees me as a friend not the other one..the other one even cursed me!! i'm being labelled as two faces la, not honest la, too cute la, that's just nasi tambah...hehe ...mmmm...what should i do? i was born to be cute, come on!! i do my best to keep it easy for everybody but the grudge is deep. it wasn't my intention to keep one party only, i would do anything to keep them both!!! i hope they can see my real intention soon..no hidden agenda..its truly because of friendship. sometime i think why do i bother to help them? why do i bother to take notice about their problem? why? i don't know why i willing jumped into their problem at first place...maybe that time i wasn't aware this could be happen. and trust me, if i aware of it, i wouldn't dare to put myself in this situation. but past is past. i don't care what anymore....but i'm truly sad..

simply fine..

2007-07-17T11:31:00.000+08:00

this morning i woke up early man. do you guys want to know why? i have to be in axis p.j around 8.45 am for photo shooting. it was for my profile that will be stick on the wall for the members to get to know me more better. hahaha...i don't know what does it sounds like but its good though. so last night i locked my alarm at 6.30am. man i was so excited!! but end up woke up at 7.20am..hehehe thanks to mama. if not i will still be in bed now...i took a very quick shower, and took off around 7.30am...haha quick rite? so..here we go, i arrived around 8.20am, and i still have 20 minutes left rite? i did number 2 and anything else la. when the time arrived, i went down stairs for the session. then i found out that i was the only one who arrived. the rest of the trainers still haven't arrive yet. argh!! nevermind, its my fault. i was forgot about the k.l timing. when it says 8.45am its mean 9.15am!!! duh..lets go to the story..so when everybody arrived, the session get started la. i was the 4th person on the list. first it was 2 guys from manulife. then hezree. hezree session took quite sometime because he's wearing a specs rite? so the photographer had to adjust hezree position to not let the reflection of his specs gonna appear in the photo. then my turn, while the photo guy was setting up my position, i was look at the photo that hezree took and its appeared to be ok la. and i was ask to stand on the position. it just took me a while only for my session. i was surprised my boss so handsome and lean!!! that wrote by him..mmm..i was so surprised it took me just a while and i felt like being cheated man . i ask the photo guy,

" why so quick one? are u trying to con me?" then he said, "oh no, we dont have an intention to cheat you, you just simply photogenic"...end of the story... hahahahaha

brain storming!!!

2007-07-16T12:29:00.000+08:00

i just can't see how you guys out there can stand for an hours sitting in front of P.C and write a long story for publish it to the internet. what makes it so fascinating ha? its hard for me to do so. i just read one blog just now, it was recommended by my fiancee. it's called,

" SEMUSIM DI NERAKA"

from what i heard, this blog quiet popular and even had been review in the newspaper last time. so i decided to check out what really makes it so popular. and i found out it was quiet entertaining. but not entertain enough as mine..(hahahahaha) just kidding. i couldn't believe that this dude can write that many stories. i think he better get a job as an editor at suratkhabar METRO. he's good!! and from there i got this idea what am i writting now. for me it's quiet challenging. i never train my brain to go beyond my capabilities of thinking. this is extraordinary for me if you guys out there want to know. but now i'm jammed!! shit!! see you soon la..

mmmmm....

2007-07-11T14:50:00.000+08:00

hello everybody, how you guys out there doing? at first i don't have anything to write but then, jane's car got bang and now she very mery mad until she want to slap me on the face...she won't slap me..that what she said..she want to slap kenn.. and finally i have something to write about..it has been a long time i didn't write anything in here am i right? so now i'm back!! shit man...i'm so tensed, pressured and horny at the same time..i think that is because the tribulus effect. my boss has been asking me why i didn't update my blog anymore? i said

" dude, i don't have any idea to write." and he said, " just write anything that had been happening around this few days la."

then i think,

" yeah, why don't i just write anything from what ever that has been happened around for this few days."

so, it started like this, last week has been very good and bad week. why? this is life man. nothing in this world would appear to be nice all the time. something must go wrong. same thing goes with my game plan. F@#k!! there goes my story, i made a pact with terence about our sales plan. early of the month we both should reach our quater budget as we did that last month. but the only person who doing that right now is terence. argh!!!! and my water retention body boss keep ask me,

" mana saya sales?" its mean " where's my sales?"

can u spot the faults? yaya..that's him...until now i still don't have anything on the table yet. this is pressuring man..but i'm cool and i can handle this problem. and to tell u the truth, desmond is a gay...hallelujah!! everyday he 's been asking me for my C#@K, man another pressure!!! just kidding. do i have to give it to him or not?hahaha...hey lets get back to the early topic. i got a pending sales but until she pay for that session then i can relax a bit. just a bit. now in my bank, the session getting less and less day by day. sometimes i feel afraid to conduct a session. this can't be happening man. i have to do something about it. i can't effort to loose a session without top it up back!!! argh!!! do you guys want to know more longer i'm writting this shit, more tense i can be. argh!!!!

"where my sales?!!!!!".

and the best of the week was, we had KFC just now for our club launch. thats for now. ciao..

those days...

2007-05-06T11:38:00.000+08:00

hello again...today is sunday morning..and yep, i'm working!!..this morning was raining heavily and i came here by bike...guess la how was i this morning..haha...lucky i have another uniform in my everyday locker. so....argh!!! let's not talk about that...the reason im writing is to tell you guys a story about how cool i was ten years back...hahaha...just kidding. but yes it's true that i was a cool dude back then..hahaha...because why? my passion for music was not a debacle issue. musics was everything to me. i was influenced by Metallica, Slayer, Megadeth, Anthrax, Guns n Roses, Nirvana, CockSparrer, The bussines many more. i was a skinhead when i was 14 year old. and that how it was started....as for any other teenager, i got influenced by all those thing that i thought it was cool. so i became one la. but it never last long in my heart because the idea was not suit my point of view.all those national front shit was not for me. so from there....i started to listen to punk music at first. Greenday...how punk is that? hahaha.....and at last God had sent me a message...HARDCORE AS FUCK!!!! Yeyo!!! hardcore is the music of my heart. no doubt about it....for me a band like Youth of today, Warzone, Chain of strenght, Judge, Bold, Sick of it all, Rykers, Madball, Ignite, Shelter, etc.. was my heroes and still in my heart...in my blood, in my soul....especially Youth of today and Chain of strenght. the lyrics are so positives and its all about togetherness... the spirit that no one can ever took away from us...i was proud of it.. youth crew spirit!!!! until now i still listen to my old collection but not as many as i have it last time. i gave it out to my friends and damn i miss listen to them. now i listen from the Last.fm only...but still in my keeps are Snapcase and Boysetsfire only and victory's comp. i forgot the title. but hey, no problem i still can listen to them online..so thank to last.fm to make me feel good one more time..write more..ciao

the day that the sun don't shine....

2007-05-03T21:46:00.000+08:00

as you guys knows already that champion's league finalist are liverpool and milan right?..and as i watched the game this morning...i can accept the losing because the whole campaign we'd been using the same group of players. so all the players are basically fatigue from the last matches. but surely one thing that is, milan was a tremendous side which i prefer to lose to them rather that to lose to chelsea, liverpool. hey we still have league title and f.a cup to redeem ourself. as you guys knows as for the league title, we almost recapture the title back this season. it has been 4 years without silverware and i personally think this is the time to bring it back to old trafford. so basically i'm quiet happy for the whole performance by the team and i think sir alex also has the same opinion as me..so ill write more soon...ciao

never get enough!!!!

2007-04-29T09:16:00.000+08:00

from the title up there, perhaps you guys must be wondering what is the thing that i never get enough with. am i right? yeah..i never get enough with what i have now. the knowledge. beside football, my passion for martial arts is very deep. any styles, any forms will do. i think that what took me to this job. i will get to a point that someone actually cant imagines to gain the knowledge. for me neither the styles nor forms is important, but the journey. it can be very experience, very tough, very painful, very hurt, very colorful, challenging and wonderful one. never about the destination! when i think about it, i feel like being a kid again. im so excited and actually i can even talk about it for an hour. full of surprises.... martial arts and weight training is inseparable. in order to get the strength and balance, one must train with weight. not only weight, the combination of plyometric and functional training will get a martial artist to their peak performance. obviously, training is very important and to have a proper programme also make the differences between you and the other martial artist. even me needs a programme. truly because i need to be train consistently and constant. so that i will be ready for any unforeseen circumstances, tourney or championship. my goal is to get at my very very best performance by early next year because i have something coming up. i don't know when, but by the time has come, ill be at my very very best... now a day, im more into total body combat. do you have any idea what is that? let me explain to you guys. have you guys watch UFC? PRIDE? No Hold Barred? it's something with no rules!!! whether you submit or you make your opponent tap out or k.o. what do you think? interesting? for me yes. because it's challenge the will. if you have a strong will, you will not tap out, but maybe k.o. (hahahahaha)....i've been learning martial arts like forever..from different form to different style...but never get enough..sometimes i wonder when will journey end...but i dont give a damn about that....i just want to pursue my dream...and im dreaming at daylight.....do you know what's that mean? figure it out by yourself....

wahahahaha!!!!

2007-04-29T07:32:00.000+08:00

I knew it!!!!! I told u guys before...that we will win the league!!! No doubt!!! I'm so happy until i feel that i want to break into tears..we comeback from 2 goals down...that was an amazing comeback and the lads fought back with a great attitude. that a define champion. a tremendous show of an attitude and believing in our self took us to the glory...it was a thrilling battle and i would say this because everton gave us scare. to be here at this point, really believe that we can achieved more than the league title. like i said it to you guys last time, we are going to chase for the treble champions. sorry for overwhelming feeling but i cannot help it because I'm so happy. you guys must accept it. our last silverware was last 4 season ago if im not mistaken because i really not a detail person. and that was only a Carling cup if I'm not mistaken again. it took us 4 years to build our team without spending so much money and just believed with the youth development. it's pay off. this is what i love about the man u. we really know how to be a champ!! the true character of a true champion. OK guys, I'm going to stop for now. i will write more soon..bare with me ya..ciao

glory!!!!

2007-04-27T09:51:00.000+08:00

How do i start? Well... we won even though the scoreline is narrow but we still won. i just worried for the next trip to Milan. We all knows what Milan capable of when they play at home. they are a great side with alots of history fairly to say. Even with the of old horses, but they still can manage to pull of something out of nothing. With the vision of Kaka and Pirlo the playmaker and the players that i wish to have in my team, there will be alots of intervention in the midfield area. the battle going to be tough and a ruthless one. I just hope that Micheal Carrick can hold the lower side of the midfield while Scholes roaming all over the pitch..God, i really can feel that we are going to be the champion of Europe, League and F.A. treble this year, it is mean that we re-write the history..glory Manchester United..glory!!!

work on weekend?? Argh!!!!!

2007-04-22T09:05:00.000+08:00

i wish that i'm still on my bed.....mmmm..wouldn't it be great? argh!!! that is just a fantasy...i'm here at work...i reached here at 6.45am k...on Sunday morning!! hey work has to come 1st..no matter what..but i love to be here at the club...yes i really mean it. i feel like there's nothing can be a better place for me rite now than the club...i don't know why...just the feeling of being here is more relaxing than at home...at here i can work and play at the same time..if i get bored with the work, i play la..after had enough of playing around, i get back to work...so guys this is my work looks like..fun? boring? it's up to you guys...but for me i rather be here that any other place in the world rite now...ill get bore one day but definitely not now.....c ya soon..

Best Diet Programme

2007-04-20T12:15:00.000+08:00

It is strongly advised that the following recommendations be adhered to achieve maximum benefits from your diet program. Remember a little discipline will go a long way in achieving your fitness goals.
Never skip breakfast. After sleeping, your body’s metabolism is low. Having a wholesome breakfast (within 30-40 mins of waking up) will boost it.

Never go hungry. Eating small meals or snacks throughout the day prevents hunger and boost metabolism.

Never overeat at any meal. It is better to eat 6-8 smaller size portions in a day than 3-4 large ones. This prevents sleepiness and keeps you energized throughout the day.

Never have a large meal within 2 hours before training. If you are hungry, have a healthy snack.

Always eat within 2 hour after every training. Your muscles start repairing and building in this time. Get a balance of protein and complex carbs.

Drink At Least 10-12 Cups Of Water Each Day. If You Can, Drink More. This is a small point but you should be drinking a lot of water. Don't drink so that you're bloated though. Water helps flush out wastes and toxins inside your body. It also helps in metabolic functions and chemical reactions that require water. Water is also especially important if you are on supplements like creatine. To know if you're getting enough water see if your urine is clear. If it's very yellow you need more water.

Eating Before Bedtime. Eating before bedtime is important. Think about it; you're going 8 hours without protein and carbs. This sets you up for muscle breakdown (catabolism). So to avoid this, drink 2 cups of milk or have some cottage cheese. The slow absorbing protein will last you most of the night and the carbs in milk are slow absorbing so they will also last you through the night.

good feeling..

2007-04-19T21:01:00.000+08:00

as you guys know that now the most hot news in town is...can guess? it's MAN U fever!!!! hahahahahaha...after sometime without silverware, now, i mean this season WE WILL WIN THE CUPS!!!!! I'm telling you guys!!! I'm so excited about it and for the sake of all mankind, man u really have to win all the cups..it has been a very long time and it's pays now...with this team that we are having right now, i personally feel that we are capable of winning it big this time. as you can see my words down my blog, a history in a making. it's going to happen again. really positive...im so happy!!!

1st words....

2007-04-18T08:27:00.000+08:00

hello!! welcome to my blog...obviously i don't have any idea how to start, so bare with me la ya..i just started my blog, and i think this is the thing that i should have now. why? because i feel that i need to have a space to spill all what i have in my mind currently. don't you guys think so? OK let's not take it too long, let's get started. this blog will be the journal of my experience. i will write down everything that i think very "in" now, very controversy, debacle, and etc...so i hope that you guys out there have patience with me. I'm going to stop now and will write more soon. see ya..